Friday, January 31, 2014

I Want to Be Happy Now ! So do You !

I Want to Be Happy Now ! So do You !

I want to be happy ! So do you if you are normal as I am ! We humans are all geared or programed in such a fashion where being Happy or contented is the very essence of being alife ! Who does not want to feel joyful and happy !? 
That is the very essential or basic need , want or just the existentialistic nature of humans !
Being happy is like my birth right ! I just feel that so deep within me ! It is my core of living !
When I am happy , there is a whole wonderful way I feel ! 
I want to be happy now ! Yes ! Now !!
As I have realised that being happy is the real thing , I might as well start to do something about it right now !
I have to or need to sit down and ask myself a few simple and basic questions ? Am I really happy ?
If not why ? What is holding me back from being happy or achieving happiness ?
Without even knowing the basic issue or where I am on this , I am just wandering around or going about my life without a clear goal or direction .
That is where insight is again an essential factor ! It is no point just getting up every morning and wishing that I become happy ! It does not happen that way , I have come to realise that sometime ago.
Once I come to realise the issues or factors that are not allowing me to be happy , than , at least , I have some understanding or awareness to what is holding me back from being happy !
Than I can see or understand what I should do to be happy !
There will be areas that I can change or do something about ! There will also be areas where I may not be able to change much ! By knowing , I am now getting to be in control of the problem or issue !
If we don't even know all this , how are we going to move ahead ?
I want to be happy now ! Yes ! Now !!
I have come to realise that most of our real issues are all towards wanting to be happy ! This is not my discovery only , no , it is the very desire of all people across the world ! It does not matter what culture , religion , race or material status we have ! We all want to be happy ! That is it !
Spiritual , religious , material , moral or any other value factor , it comes to that one essential reality : want to be happy !
I now want to tell you the One reality that will immediately bring you happiness !
Happiness is Now ! I , you and all can be happy now !!
Yes , Happiness is now ! It is in this very moment that you can and will be happy !
There is no happiness in the past or all the yesterdays ! It is over and gone . There simply is no point even talking of getting any thing from the past , except memories ! Even those are usually negative or if they are good or happy moments , than we get trapped in the past nostalgic , which can make us even more miserable ! We all keep talking of the good old days and that is not happiness ! That is pain and misery !
Wishing for happiness in the future is again a wishful thinking ! It is speculative at best or apprehensive at worst ! Who knows what the future will in store for us ! We can keep dreaming that tomorrow we will do this or we will do that ! It may happen or not , but , right now I am just siting in the same present moment and wishing or hoping ! Maybe , useful , but the reality is that I am not happy Now !
Let me bring you back to the one area , spot or moment where I want to feel and think being happy .
That moment is Now !
Happiness can only be experienced and enjoyed Now ! 
It is a Now Experience !
I saw this wonderful statement from a book and it is worth sharing here .
Happinessisnowhere ! 
Read carefully :  Happiness is no where or Happiness is now here !
Think about the above and you will realise that we all need to correct our distorted view or perception
of the most wonderful experience that we all wish to have is already here ! 
Happiness is not something ! Happiness is an experience , a feeling and thinking that can only be in the Now !
Happiness no where and happiness is now here has got something to do with the event , but the reality is in the Perception ! That is the secret Key !
The secret key to always being happy is not out there anywhere ! No !
It is right here within you always ! The real potential and magic is within us All !
To find joy , happiness , love and freedom is all an inner experience within all of you always !
That is the only place , space that you will ever be happy ! 
Just look around and if you watch live and people around , you will soon come to this realisation too !
I have been studying this for quite some time and I have come to the realisation that if I really want to be happy and create my heaven on Earth , than I have to understand my inner being !
When I decided to be happy after I realised my inner potential , I became happy instantly !
Did my external circumstances change immediately too ? Not really !! 
However , as I am always happy now , my outer circumstances too start to change slowly !
Now , I am always happy because I value my life and I am really happy being here as I am ! It is my choice ! It is my decision now ! I am in control now and forever ! 
Does it mean that things outside are always going to be good ?! No !
The events outside are going to happen as they are meant to happen , I have not much control on them ! I have All the control on how I feel or think about those events ! That is my choice ! 
Now , that really makes me feel good !
I am not searching for any happiness outside ! I am happy now !
I Am good enough as I am . That is self acceptance !
I share and give out my self without any conditions ! I love you because that makes me feel good .
I am there for you because that makes me feel good and happy ! That is it !
I don't have go out of my way to please , chase or get anything more , as I know that it will not matter much ! 
My happiness is an inner affair ! It is always within me !
I hope you have enjoyed reading and becoming aware to achieving or becoming happy always !
Let me know what you have to say or comment ? I am always willing to keep writing more so that you can understand .
Till than , thank you again for reading .






Take care and be happy . Love.
Amar.



What Does It All Mean ?

What Does It All Mean ?

Here are some of my random thoughts . I got up rather early this morning . It was about 5:30 AM .
I know that because the first early morning prayer was going on from the many several mosques around my place of residence . There is something beautiful and a deep sense of calling , pleading , requesting or just needing from the Great All Whatever ! 
As the early morning air is cool , a freshness and an expectation is sensed to the start of another day !
I also listened to some birds that were equally starting their day !
Just decided to sit quietly and enjoy the stillness of everything . 
I was able to feel a certain sense of being something bigger and vast then my limited physical /mind dimension ! 
The bigger sense of beingness appeared to be all around ! It felt like the very space that I was ! 
I felt One with all that was ! Nothing appeared out of me ! In fact , what was or who was me !
Of course , a part of my thoughts were clear that my name is Amar and I am the body and is sitting
quietly ! However , that part was just like another object that was just there ! It was like the material things lying around in the room ! The body , the sofa , the table , furniture , walls , carpet and all were just that ! 
They belonged to me ! Me was not belonging to them ! Me was just No-thing ! 
What does it mean ?!
This sense and experience of me was so much bigger than the physical Amar and all that Amar believed in !
This sense of me simply had no such beliefs at all !!
It was completely free of any such sense of belongness ! It was not even too concerned about the very body through which it was or feeling the experience !
I was able to have a dialogue with the bigger whatever me was ! I here was Amar ! I know it is getting slightly confusing and even bordering a state of being crazy to put it mildly ! After all I am a medical doctor , trained in Psychological medicine and also had training in psychotherapy ! 
Why would I want to share this experience and get myself in trouble !! 
Do I have a death wish for my character and standing in my society or even in my new standing in this vast virtual world !
What does it matter ! 
Yes , I can be labelled which ever way one wants ! Some will call me crazy or even worst ! Some might even call me an awakening soul ! Majority or most simply have no time for me !! 
They have their worries to think about ! Why bother about this persons early morning rumblings !
My simple point is this : If I am going crazy , than it is good and okay ! No worries ! No problem and we move on  our separate worlds ! Mine of going or becoming crazy and your sane world that you think is going to give you much ! So be it !
What if I am actually moving beyond the narrow physical dimension of existence and am becoming aware of something much bigger and vast ?!
What does it all mean ?!
I sat watching my state of thoughts and a sense of just being ! 
The vast Me is ever being and Amar just got up and went about it's normal routine !!
The vast Me does not belong , has no sense of belonging and yet appears to be there for All !
The v




ast Me does not even belong to Me !!
I think I have gone far enough for today ! Every extra word is taking me deeper from a point of no return ! 
Anyway , What does it matter !
Will end today . You are welcome to comment or have your say ?
Till we meet again , take care .
Amar.

Wednesday, January 29, 2014

With No Insight We Are Doomed !

Without Insight We Are Doomed !

I have chosen strong words for my heading ! I have to do this as this is one major or probably the biggest problem we humans are facing today towards peace, happiness and blissful living !
Insight is the key to unlocking the magic to good life ! Simple as that !
I am writing as simple as I can so that we all can sit and reflect what I want to express and why ?
Lets start with our behaviour with ourselves and to others . Let us explore how or what happens without insight and with insight .
Without insight , we keep behaving in the same way again and again ! We keep repeating the same patterns even if they are doing damage to us or to others ! We are like some mindless creature that is unable to see or understand what we are doing ! We get angry . We abuse , fight verbally or even physically and we are unable to see what we have done to our relationship ! All relationships are built on love and trust . Yet , look around and you will notice how stressed and miserable we are with our relationships ! We are tensed , bored and just out right upset and angry being in the relationship !
We quarrel or abuse each other daily and are always so miserable most of the time ! This resulting in unable to be productive to ourselves and to others . We walk about as though we cannot understand how or why we are like we are ! We appear confused and lost . This is a picture of having no insight whatsoever ! 
We are simply unable to ponder or reflect why or how we are constantly getting into the same situation again and again . We are just unable to see our thoughts and feelings running around within us ! We just cannot see that we are doing all this to ourselves ! We cannot understand that we can actually have quite alot of control on how we behave . We may not be able to control or change our outer world , but we can definitely have a big say to how we react ! In fact , this is the greatest and biggest control we can have towards a wonderful life !!
Call it attitude , insight , wisdom , knowledge or experience , it does not matter ! It matters that we become aware and understand how we can really improve our life and living . Just take the case of anger . We all can realise that nobody is happy when we are angry . Nobody benefits from anger . The one who is angry and uses it and the one who receives it , are both upset and miserable ! This is the worst kind of relationship. If we use the analogy of investment , both are loosing here . Soon , we can realise that it is doing so much of damage and practically destroying the relationship .
We can step back and wonder why are we going on doing this to ourselves . When we don't do it , it means , that we don't have insight !
Insight literally means that we are able to understand our behaviours and are able to work out some new format or way . Either we are able to adjust and change our behaviours or we can leave to some better or safer relationship . We stop abusing ourselves and others . That is how love is meant to work. If our love is not working for whatever reason , at least , we are able to step back and show some decency and respect to the one we love or loved .
Insight means we are able to look within at our own thoughts and feelings and are able to do something about them . If we are unable to do that , we are going to keep repeating the same behaviour pattern . That is crazy and hence we are doomed ! Doing the same thing and expecting different results is a sign of madness ! 
Insight is so essential that our very progress , growth and development is based on insight !
Everything in life is centred around insight ! 
If Buddha went in search of a better life , it is because he had insight to the life he was going to have !
Even , being a king or prince made him realise that all life is ever changing , temporary and will not last ! All the hallmarks of such thinking comes from insight ! 
People are going on doing severe damage to themselves by smoking , drinking alcohol , taking drugs
and much more because they are unable to see the abuse they do to themselves .
Have to write more on insight , especially , how do we really get insight ?! 
Insight can only come if we are able to became quiet and sit still ! Only than we are able to sit and ponder or ponder what is happening to us ! Until than , we are just running around without becoming aware .




Will leave it here for today . Need to come back to this big topic again .
Till we meet again , take care .
Thank you .
Amar.

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

My Impressions on Reality !

My Impressions on Reality !

Reality to me is not a static , material entity ! It is a dynamic physical and also non-physical interplay of energies ! Our life and world is continuously changing . The change can be pleasant  or unpleasant . Sometimes life feels lonely and at other times becomes crowded !
In crowded situations I yearn for for a quiet time . In quiet times I look for company ! In this ever changing reality , we get tossed around like a bottle cock tossing in the sea . The waves keep playing with the cock .
If I allow my feelings to flow , I experience moods that arise from an aimless idle mind ! An idle mind is not empty ! It is constantly and continuously indulging in thinking and feeling restlessly .
The moods keep changing as the thoughts are passing ! On the other hand , if I with intention , start to focus my thoughts in some specific direction , the mood changes too ! Just sitting and wondering of the wonders of this vast Universe and its massive time space dimensions , I go into another mood of awe and amazement ! I am so humbled by this eternal and infinite Creation that my simple mundane issues appear trivial and petty !
Mental exercises can create a flow-like experience that becomes enjoyable and pleasant .
Sitting quietly and being in the Now is itself so joyful and satisfying !
Instantly a wonderfully strange peace descends upon me ! A feeling of being One with everything and All ! The feeling is one of being contented , complete , satisfied and in bliss !
Suddenly all the yesterdays and tomorrows fold up within that state of Oneness !
Sitting still the restless desires disappear ! In it's place a feeling of bliss becomes available !
From the feeling of being in that state , every event of the past or the future is seen as an interesting episode of learning only ! Life is seen as an experience only ! 
It appears like a movie that is moving and changing all the time ! Everything is ever changing and will go away ! Than why make such a fuss ! The good will go away ! The bad or unpleasant too will go away ! 
Why not just sit back and enjoy the ride or the movie !
I have come to or arrived to the ever changing body/mind and am aware of the changeless Self that is always the One constant !
This the Reality for me ! 
There is the One that is and always above or just every where ! It is like the ever present space !
Within that is the many aspects or parts of me ! This me is constantly running all around . Sometimes it wants this and at



other times it wants that ! Than it is not sure and may want the same desires in the reverse ! The ever changing part of me is always expressing from a limited sense ! I simply call it Amar ! 
Amar is that part of  me that is limited in time and space ! It will not last too long !It has a birth and it will die too ! How long ? , it does not matter ! 
However much , I am aware of the Oneness , the Amar element will always surface to give its own views of fear , anxiety , doubts and ' ANTS ' ( Automatic Negative Thoughts ! ) 
If I keep focusing on the Amar element , than it will become stronger and start to control me !
When , I sit back and see me as the ever present timeless and space less Whatever , than all is just blissful !
I have just started to share my journey of experiments and experiences of Life and Living .
You are welcome to give your comments and views too ?
There is no right or wrong ! 
Will end now . 
Till we meet again , take care .
Amar.

Ultimate Union - The Only Reality !

Ultimate Union - The Only Reality !

As I experience it : The vast Creation is no accident , neither is it a chance happening !
There is a design , a system . 
There also has to be a Designer , a Creator or Creative Principal !
This Creative Principal has become a source of much confusion and divisions amongst the people of this planet ! They have taken this One Principal very personally !! So much so , that now they have created very strong compartments , divisions , and borders and divided the whole human race into separated groups ! 
How did it happen , that we got so divided ?
The major cause is that we are all trapped in Belief systems !
The One source which was or is to bring us together has resulted in us being further away from each other ! The One is ! That Reality has been , is and will be always the same !
We , humans have got ourselves in this mess by our own sense of ignorance and illusions .
Beliefs are our outer expressions of our inner ignorance . 
By just being at the level of beliefs , we are going to be confused and lost ! The very nature of belief is itself in question and doubt ! 
Beliefs are a good place to start . It is like having a hypothesis towards a search , as in a research project . A belief is actualy a wonderful place to begin ! Belief is where imagination comes in !
All of scientific work is basically based on such a model . It has done pretty well . You can all see the progress that we have achieved on our material level !
With a belief and a hypothesis , we get towards testing our theory against the One Truth !
Infortunately , we have created tons of beliefs and sat down with them as our realities !
We have convinced ourselves that our beliefs are real and now have made them so scared that even to question them is risky and dangerous ! A whole system has been established around these beliefs!
The ones who control this beliefs and the believers are not even thinking that there is a whole wonderful real truth just alittle ahead !
We are fighting with our beliefs and further getting trapped ! Some of the walls are so solid that any amount of reasoning will make no difference ! The walls have become fundamentally solid ! 
The belief system has locked itself within it's own system ! It has become a closed system !

Until we can go beyond this belief system , we are for ever going to be caught in this very system for a very long time !
Progress , knowledge and understanding can only happen when we can go beyond the beliefs !
When we go beyond the beliefs , we start to slowly become aware of another level . As we go towards this Oneness and start to have an experiental awareness , we are struck by the wonderful and magical sense of being One ! 
Just look around and we can see no boundaries or any lines dividing us ! Just like in any species , we too have many sub species or different varieties . The flowers have so much of variety . The birds and animals , The sea is full of different species . What is wrong with that ?! It makes everything so much beautiful and amazing ! Can you imagine a planet where all the flowers are red and look alike !! 
Same goes with all the other species ! Can you imagine all humans are only grey!! 





Can we not have a concept that Diversity in Unity is just wonderful !
I think I will leave you here to ponder or just entertain a life beyond beliefs !
I will , of course , go on exploring this topic in the future . 
Thank you for reading . 
Till we meet again .
Good night , Namaste and take care .
Amar.

Monday, January 27, 2014

Do you Know Me ? Do I Know Myself ?

Do You Know Me ? Do I Know Myself ?

This two simple questions that sound so ordinary are questions that I have been thinking about so often ! These two ordinary questions can change an ordinary life to an extraordinary life ! The whole outlook can change when we exam this two questions !
Do you know me ? It is a simple question yet if we look deeper or just ponder , we will realise that this simple question can become a real deep awareness and more ! 
Let me see if I can explain my view . My father or mother have seen me since birth and have been very close to me . They actually believe that they know me or what are my needs , wants , desires and opinions or views on myself , and all things ! Do they really know me ? 
They see me as their child or son and they have formed their opinions about me . They have created a certain belief of my personalty , character , potential and much more ! They will actually think you are capable of this and not that ! They will constantly pass remarks that I can do that and not that ! I use to really wonder how they made those remarks ! How did they know what I was thinking or feeling ?! I became aware that I really could not know what was going on in their minds . What were their thoughts or feelings ?! 
So , I wondered how could they know my thoughts and feelings ! That is the way of everybody around . They think or feel they know you ! Do they !?
More often we sort of assume or create our own impression of somebody and convince ourselves that we know them !! Most parents believe that they know their children !! Look around and you will see how wrong or misinformed they are . It is because of such attitude that we have so much of misunderstanding between people ! We assume or believe that so and so is like that . Opinions are constantly formed . I wanted to write as a child , my parents really thought that I was daydreaming or in some form of delusion ! I asked my learned parents , why they thought that I could not write ? Well , nobody in our family has been a writer ! Not even in the extended family or even friends around ! So , that is it ! I cannot write ! They have decided my fate ! Just like it ! My father was passionate of being a doctor . Can I be one ? Yes , of course !! 
On another occasion , I asked my parents that I wanted to be a painter ?! Again , they were shocked as to from did I get my thought and ideas ? 
So , from very early in life , I became aware that nobody really knows me !? 
So the next question is , do I know myself ?
That is another amazing question that has baffled me ever since my birth !!
I know that I have acquired many beliefs , behave patterns , cultural and other patterns from my surroundings . Be it parents , family , friends , schools , religion , country and so much more ! I kept on agreeing to so much around without even knowing all the implications that it will have on me and my personalty , character and future ! Beliefs and so much was given to me or sometimes pushed onto me ! I use to really wonder how , why or what the f@#$ is going on what the people around !!
Life was flowing down stream and life can be fun and easy , yet , most people wanted to struggle or swim against the flow of life !! 
Why were they doing that ? They believed that they must work hard . They belief that money does not grow on trees ! They believe that they will either go to heaven or hell !! They believed in a very strange kind of God ! They had so many funny beliefs that I can go on relating to you for a very long time ! Some how I stopped trusting all the people a very long time ago !! They did things that I just could not understand ! Why ?
So , coming to my simple question as to what or who am I ? Do I know myself ?! 
The more I kept seeking myself , the more I became aware that I am really a very strange entity !!
Here , I am now becoming a writer ! A blogger ! I am actually enjoying it ! Feel passionate ,  Sitting down to express myself with joy !! My childhood dream appears to become real ! I just enjoy playing with words my way ! Did I paint ? Yes , I did ! 
Did I get to know myself ? Yes !! I am just amazed that myself is still unfolding and expanding and still expressing !! What an awesome life and living ! 
Thank you for reading and sharing my experience of life and living !
I think we both need a break ! Maybe some coffee will be good !
Take care , my dear friends . Enjoy .
Amar.





Saturday, January 25, 2014

Some Happenings and Knowings !

Some Happenings and Knowings !

It is all about some happenings and knowings in my world of experience !
My world is largely abstract with a little of concrete !
Let me explain that to you . 
The real objects that are concrete are wonderful and okay . The tree , a dog , that person , this car , the woman , and all such that's and this !
The drama starts when I bring in my abstract thoughts and feelings !
The tree now disappears ! Yes ! Now , I want to know the name or species of the tree . I see if it is beautiful . Is it good for shade or firewood ! Maybe it is too big and I need to trim the branches or reshape it to my liking ! ( I don't need the trees permission ! Anyway it does not talk or feel ! )
That dog is soooo cute ! That is an ugly dog ! I just don't like dogs ! 
Cats are beautiful ! they look so adorable . I don't trust cats . 
My pet is getting cranky , need to let the pet psychologist to do some therapy !! My dog is soo human! 
That is an



ugly woman ! I don't find her attractive . She is gorgeous . 
I don't like your colour choice . Your fashion taste is terrible . The is my favourite brand .
My car is the best . Your house is too big...... and my abstract thinking and feeling go on ruling my life and living !
All these opinions or views are not real ! They are subjective and can or do change ! This are my personal views . Sometimes they become biased and prejudiced too ! than such views and opinions can lead to all sorts of differences and separations in our Oneness !
We are All Unique and Different ! Let me repeat again , We are All Unique and different !!
So , how can you or me or we compare them ?!
How can I compare an apple to an orange ?!
How I compare you to me ?!
You are you and will be always ! I will always be just me !
That people are better than those !
This has got us all so divided and separated. 
My this is better than yours and the drama goes on and on !
In about a hundred years from now , we will all be no more !! Take that for our arrogance or ignorance !
I have expressed enough on this for today ! 
Take care and enjoy . 
Amar.

We are the Cream ! 2 Billion Strong and Getting Stronger !

We are the Cream ! 2 Billion Strong and Getting Stronger !

It just occurred to me this morning that there are about , almost or even more than 2 Billion people connected on the Internet ! That is a huge number of people ! It's nearly the combined population of China and India ! It is also much more than the combined population of the whole of Europe , USA , Canada , Australia , Japan and Russia and still place for more !! 
What does that mean ?! 
It means that the smartest people of the world are getting connected ! It means that the average and above average people who are in the middle and upper bracket are connected online !
2 Billion strong is a big number by any means , especially when it comes to people !
So , what ?!
It means that if these people can awaken to this reality , they can have a huge and major impact to everything that is happening to the Human species ! If they can understand the power of being One and the Unity of  this Oneness , they can do things that are beyond the imagination of most today !
I was just blown by the very scale of the possibilities and the potential that is available to the people of the world today !
I allowed my imagination to go wild ! I am , after all , the WildOne !
I just had a thought , that can we feed all the hungry if we decide or choose to ! We can !!
If we have the will , than we can do anything ! 
I had a real good laugh , when I even realised that , if only all the people decided to contribute just 1 dollar ( $1/- )  and that will be an instant 2 Billion dollars ! 
My point is that there is so much that we can do !
Imagination is magic ! Just let your imagination go wild and you will see or get the most amazing ideas!
As , I just said , the 2 Billion people come from all over the world . They are from all walks of life . They are from all races ,religions , cultures , nations , and what ever ! They are smart to be able to figure out how to surf or navigate the net ! I thought I was smart , and I am just learning to walk ! Sometimes , I fumble , even trip and fall , but mostly I can walk online now ! 
I have a dream !! ( Wow , can even dream like the Great American Freedom Activist , Martin Luther King Jr ! ) 
Yes , if only we can realise what kind of potential we humans have , than we can literally move mountains ! 
Believe me ! It is all possible if you , me and we all believe ! Believe that we can !
I want to actual laugh , because , I sound like I am making some speech to stand for some office !!
The truth is , I can actually feel within me that it is no laughing matter ! It is doable !
The truth is that this is the Biggest number of Humans in any group , field that can unite for a course !
No time in the history of the Human civilisation has such an opportunity risen !




I better stop ! I might just get carried away with my imagination !
Let me have some response or comments ? Let's see what is possible !
Have fun and enjoy .
Till we meet again , take care .
Amar.

Friday, January 24, 2014

The Rules and Game of Nature !

The Rules and Games of Nature !

Let me share with you an experience I had sometime ago . 
I decided not to drive my car for about 3 weeks . I just felt like staying in my home and being in my own element ! Actually my own element means nothing much if you were to ask me ! Just more being and less doing ! With no agenda , no one to meet and no other desire or need to go out , I will do little things around my home . Do alittle cleaning , change bedsheets , wash my bathroom , vacuum the carpet and mostly just sitting , reading and listening to music ! Do I need to do even this ?! No ! I can easily ask someone to do that for me and in fact , they are more than willing to do this for ! No , thank you! I simply want my little private life in my home ! That is my home ! A place where I live on my terms !



Okay , coming to my idea of not driving my car for 3 weeks . While I thought it was a good idea , Nature had other plans of it's own !
There are big rats around my area . So big that even the cats just keep their distance from them ! They look like Ninja warriors and are very agile and smart . They mostly live in the dark under world ! Drains , sewage and other places that I wont want to go to !
Anyway , coming to car and the rats ! The rats became aware that my car was not moving and just lying there ideal ! They were searching or hoping to have a new home or a holiday resort of some sort! Whatever the reason or situation , the rats decided to get into my car engine . They found it a very cosy place and news quickly must have spread that it was a perfect place for a honeymoon ! Whichever couple or family that came to reside in my engine also had other plans . I am not sure who , but , they thought it would be a good idea to rearrangement my engine wires and petrol tubes and what not ! 
When I came to start my car engine , that is when I saw all the mess and the wires eaten and what not! I learned a big lesson with a heavy price too ! It cost me some money to get my car back to normal again !
The lesson I learnt was that Nature will respect you and allow you to live the way you like .
If you step away from things than Nature will step in to do what it has to do ! I have noticed that if I leave my home and go out for a holiday , all the insects will come out to take over my home ! The spiders will have a great time designing their webs all around ! The ants too will create pathways and walks all around the house ! The dust too feels that it can just be ! The whole aura is different when I am away . Nature knows that I am not using the place , so they use !
Don't laugh at my simplistic  explanations ! I have lived long enough to witness some of my kitchen truths ! I don't walk and I will not be able to use my legs as before ! Just try lying down for a few weeks and see if you can walk as before ? Muscles will grow if you use them ! Otherwise they atrophy and become wasted ! The Law is simple . Use It or Lose It !!
As we are also part of Nature , we too have to follow the same Law ! 
I hope you enjoyed reading my blog as much as I enjoyed typing my thoughts .
Take care . Till we meet again .
Amar.

Thursday, January 23, 2014

Living Fully , Loving Freely !

Living Fully , Loving Freely !

Let me just express what I mean by living fully and loving freely .

Living fully is living on my terms ! For me living fully is also living my way ! It is doing what I feel like doing . If I feel like doing nothing , than so be it . Sometimes I think I should vacuum my living quarters , at other times I feel I just want to laze around and perhaps have coffee or maybe I want to read a book . I feel that I want to enjoy reading my favourite book as it makes me feel so happy and joyful ! Is that not what I am suppose to do to enjoy my life ?! Little things like that can bring joy to living ! 
As an ordinary simple person , I just like to live on my simple terms ! 
I have no desire to become a leader of any country , or have a need or desire to be famous ! I am not even wanting to be extremely wealth too !
I just want to be Me !
Being me is so satisfying and feels so wonderful and contented ! I think and feel I like myself ! What I mean , is that I really enjoy life and living in a most simple way ! I can just go about cleaning my bathroom or washing some clothes and I find that very satisfying ! Am I weird or some crazy guy ?
I don't think so . I have just become very Zen-like ! You can laugh if you want , it's okay with me !
I became aware that there is a hidden joy in just being simple ! Just being is really good enough for me! I have actually watched how my hands are rubbing or washing some plates after my meal . I find it very fascinating to say the least . My hands seem to know what to do ! They move about with a certain skill and purpose , all on some auto program ! 
Of course , I can give all sorts of learned words to these actions , but does it matter ! I am happy and peaceful ! Is that not what we all are trying to achieve ?! Contented , happy and peaceful !
As about myself , I am just me ! I am not the best , I am also not the worst . I am just perfect as I am !
I really don't need to prove myself to anyone . I am not important , or so important to even the some !
I just enjoy being me in a very ordinary way ! 
Even as I am sitting and typing this blog I am just enjoying doing it ! I feel like sharing and maybe knowing how others are living their life ?
By the way , I do think of all sorts of stuff . From the never-ending vast Universe that really blows my mind . How can I really make any sense of this infinity ! Just knowing there is infinity is wonderful . That gives the joy that anything and everything is possible ! I am amazed how easily we allow ourselves to be trapped in our petty , trivial and limitedness . If my thoughts can fly to infinity , than I can . My thoughts ,feeling and me are not separate ! They are all one ! I am not just bones , flesh and arms . I am not some statistic




number , name , race , religion or some role !
Yes , I enjoy being any role , as a son , a father , a brother , a husband , a doctor , a lover , a friend and so many more ! I enjoy my roles as equally as having no roles !
That is living fully and loving freely !
Thinking , learning , feeling and being . Making mistakes , correcting them , turning left or right . 
Live is truly for Living !
If live is truly for living , than loving freely is like breathing ! Without breath there is no live and without loving there is no living !
Living fully and loving freely is Life !
Thank you for reading through this slightly longish blog .
Take care till we meet again .
Enjoy life .
Amar.