Awareness : Ordinary Life into Extraordinary Experience

Awareness : Ordinary Life into Extraordinary Experience !

Today , I am going to touch on this marvelous wonder of experiencing awareness !

When I become aware of the ever presence of awareness as that which allows , holds , contains all that is , that was , and that will be , than , a quantum shift has taken place within me !

That shift has turned my ordinary life and living into an extraordinary experience ! Instead of experiencing things in parts , everything is seen as a whole ! The words that come to me are indeed strange and rather uncomfortable to say the least . you will see for your self and make your own judgement or form an opinion . 

Instead of having a limited sense of experience , I am now all that is ! I am light and darkness ! I am life and death and more ! The ' I Am ' is the space that contains all , all the time and always .

All ever changing forms are within the Changeless Formless !

What ever happens or does not happen is within the ever present nothingness !

Even as I am typing the above words , I feel very uncomfortable as to what and where I am placing myself ! This is not a new situation for me . I have been leading my life since a very long time as an outsider . Meaning that I always seem to be standing at the fringe of everyday living .

I am aware that our habit of identifying with this and not that creates limits , borders and imbalance .

If I cling to life and not to death , then automatically I create imbalance , insecurity , incompleteness and neediness !

These conditions of lack and need create stress , strain and fear !

Fear always comes from lack , incomplete and need ! 

If I an satisfied , contended and feel a sense of completeness in all states of living and dying , then where is fear ?!

I am absolutely joyful in all states of being.

The terms life and death are just man-made words that have created a fragmentation or separation of everything when there is no such experience .

When am I dying or living ??

Where is the boundary , demarcation or any line of separation ?

In reality there is no such distinction at all !

Ever moment , ( if there is such a state ! ) dying and living happens ! It happens instantly and spontaneously .In fact , within this process the game of life , death and creation ceases to be .

the flow of life can only take place in the very process of change ( another term for life and death !)

The child in me must allow the youth to manifest ! If the child refuses to go , then how will the youth come forward !

If the youth does not leave the stage , the adult cannot come !

Night must allow day to come ! 

This wonderful magic of change is is the most awesome wonder of creation !

In awareness , all is changing all the time .

Awareness like space accepts all changes without any reason . Change happens above and beyond all reasons .

Change is the only constant reality .

In the back of changeless awareness , change is happening consistently and constantly !

Just as a screen remains constant as the projection of the movie changes always yet nothing effects the screen .

Nothing happens to space in a similar manner .

Phew ! I have really thrown myself into the deep !

You have a simply choice ?

Read it or reject it ! 

Thank you for having the patience to read through .

Till we meet again . Amar.

An Adventure Called Life !

An Adventure Called Life !

Life and living is the most exciting and challenging event that is happening to us all !

Unfortunately , we have almost all got entangled and trapped in a secondary reality!

The reality of beliefs has  trapped and imprisoned us . Beliefs are such powerful forms of thought patterns that , that is the only reality or truth for most people ! These belief systems are really fascinating to experience and live in .

Human nature is very fragile and can easily be manipulated and distorted by the outside/external agencies. Once we give in to them , then we are trapped in their ideas/beliefs/traditions and ways .

Life is so fun, magical and mysterious always ! The very process of the ever changing life and living is so exciting ! We have to have an attitude of high adventure where the very process of living is joyful .

We simply must or have to sense of wonder and awe . Curiosity must always be excitingly unfolding the unknown to us !

We just don't know what is going around us but we tend to belief that we know or understand.

Everything is so relative . There are so many beliefs being expressed that it just funny and fascinating !

Just take a moment to watch all the major systems or institutions of the Human race and all are great fun to watch and enjoy !

I am always enjoying everything about Life and living .

We have actually created knowledge out of thin air !

Life and death are actually the same !! I know it sounds so very strange when I say that ! 

Just stop and reflect a little . 

A river is called a river because it flows .It must keep flowing to be called a river ! Flow is the ever changing process of water . Every nano moment water is just moving . Stop that and we have to give it another name . Call a pond / lake or tank . It is not a river . 

Similarly , Life is life when it to is ever changing . 

Change can Only happen when one aspect gives way to the other !

If, for some strange reason this moment decides to stop and not go away , then what will happen ?!

The flow of live will stop ! Time stops ! 

Life is over , if it does not flow . 

So , now watch carefully how we use words here . Life and death . They actually mean the same !

Yesterday had to go for today to come !

I have to lift this foot away from the ground to go forward !

I will tell you more funny things of our Human nature .

Today we have 4 to 5 major religions and beliefs that practically controls or governs us .

If we study history , we realise that about 3-4 thousand years ago ,none of the present religions were there! When we fight or quarrel over something that is ever changing it is funny and sad .

Some time ago our planet was thought to be flat !

Some time ago our planet was the centre of the Universe !

Sometime ago it was thought that a metal ship or boat will never be able to float !

Let me go on with some time ago ! 

Most people and all the brainy , smart ones actually laughed if you told them that we want to fly!

Two , brave young men got a simple wooden plane off the ground and today you see for yourself the wonders of our flying machines !

Humans can never ran below 4 minutes per mile !

I can just go on to show how our beliefs always limit us and yet , time and time again , we have the brave pioneers who simply go beyond that limited beliefs .

Life is an adventure and we must be brave and strong enough to see that we are able to expand and experience life to it's fullest .

So, lets get going and enjoy this wonderful Life sand living .

Till we meet again , keep going !

Amar/Dr Dhali. 

Life is Just Amazingly Wondeful !

Life is Just Amazingly Wonderful !

After my last 3 posts where I was sharing my life experiences in relationship to death , I felt most people may get an impression that I must be some weird person obsessed with the dark side of living !

Far from that , I am a very happy and joyful , fun loving , normal person .

I realised that alots of issues in living are coloured by the constant nagging of the temporariness of Life .

Being so , we are unable to fully open up full throttle to expressing and enjoying ourselves .

I did not want this rope of fear hanging around my neck !

So , I decided that first I better come to terms with this major or the most important issue .

Having dealt with that , now I can take all the necessary risks to experience living my way !

I have no desire to do any weird or extreme events to prove a moment ! It's simply pointless to do that .

Even without that , Life is just amazingly wonderful !

When we start seeing and watching life in its fullness , then we are just awed and simply fascinated

with everything around us .

From the smallest thing to the largest whatever ! Ever moment is out of this world !

I can sit anywhere and just watch whatever there is ! 

Walking by an average neighbourhood road can be amazing . Small tiny plants and weeds growing out of the cracks on the side of the road is enough for me to stop and admire them ! I can actually sit and connect to them ! It's amazing and unbelievable how we are capable of connecting to everything !

As I am enjoying the trees and the leaves and I am really pleased. 

Little insects flying ,bees, butterflies and so much else .

The blue or dark skies are all lovely . The rain , winds and the sun .

Fresh leaves , dried leaves , dust, dirt and the stones, sand and simple earth !

All are just wonderful .

The majestic mountains , the skies , rivers , oceans and lakes !

They too are equally wonderful !

As for me , even little things in my own backyard , house and the surroundings can excite me .

My own very body is magical ! You wont believe it that I am blown by simple stuff . Walking ! I am wondering at the complexity of my bodies movements , hands , eyes , ears and the rest of the body !

Our body is marvelously amazing . 

So , in short , Life is just one amazing experience moment to moment !

It's so wonderful to enjoy life and to also see the ever changing passing of everything !

It's a holistic view where all is perfect !

Life simply is magic !

Thank you once again  .

Now the Ultimate Reason Why Death is My Best Friend

Now the Ultimate Reason Why Death is My Best Friend !

As I have started revealing my relationship with this Great Mystery , I might as well go all the way !

My earlier two blogs that I shared from my personal life . Now again I have to go very personal into my life ! I just realised that our life is a great treasure house of the most unique type !

Also , as I am sharing my very very personal story with all of you , it does take courage and inner reason ! I always kept notes and journals about my experiences ! It was just my habit . During my meetings with people around the world , I was always asked why dont I want to write and share my experience of living . I just never felt a need , plus I am so contented and happy with my quite and private life .

However , now I feel that I am ready to come out and share my unique life experiences . We all have unique life stories that are so amazing !

Anyway, coming to my ultimate reason why death is my best friend ? 

This story from my life is about 21 years old !

At that time , I was a successful medical doctor practicing in Malaysia .

Things were going really well in terms of everything that the world had to offer .

Happy at work , enjoyed my passion to heal and help people with physical and psychological issue .

Domestic life too was good . A wonderful wife and a son that was and is a gift from the Source !

I have always treated everything as a gift and loan that I can enjoy but must remember to return back when I leave this physical life ! I am just a visitor at most and just passing through !

Although all life was wonderful and fun , I still went to my inner space to sit in silence and just be !

In those states of being, amazing and magical things can and do happen ! Call it mystical or mysterious

or whatever label suits you , but be warned something is happenning in that or this space !

One day, as I was in this space , I was feeling good about my external life and world . I was having a dialogue with No-thingness ! I simply talked , of course , in my mind .

I told the mysterious No-thingness that I am very pleased with the present situation and my worldly trappings .

I got a reply back !  . How ? A thought simply comes like an email in the inbox ! Like an email from No-thingness !

The reply was , do you really own or have all this things or trappings ? I replied that I feel that I have them . Immediately I got a full reply ! I was told that I own nothing ! Everything was just a passing show ! Infact, I have actually become trapped and a prisoner of sorts ! I was reminded how I worked so hard and had to maintain my lifestyle . It was a great responsibility and stressful at times too !

Wow ! It was a hard knock ! I become very silent and then asked what should I do to correct the situation ? The No-thingness just told me to be calm and relax ! So I did just that !

Let me also tell you that I had a very simple lifestyle inspite of my external trappings !

I was a lacto-vegetarain , no smoking , no alcholic drinks whatsoever ! not much of a party animal .

In short a bore to most people ! Hahaha.

All went well . I went to work as usual and everything was going smooth .

Then , one evening as I was driving back from my medical practice im my comfortable car , I felt slightly giddy . Very mild and lasted a few seconds . I just thought that I must be tired .

Came home and enjoyed my evening with family and some friends that had come to visit me from India. 

All was well . I came to my bedroom about midnight . As I was going to go to bed , I told my wife to switch places with me ! I dont know why ! A thought just came . Instead of sleeping  nearer to the air-conditioning , I wanted to sleep near  to the phone ! Of course, at that moment I had no idea why I was behaving or doing what I was doing ! I just followed my gut feelings or instincts !

My wife too accepted my behave without any questions .

It was 2 am ! I got up feeling a sharp and severe pain on the left side of my chest ! The pain was so severe that I felt as though a sharp knife was cutting into my body ! I jumped up and switch on my side table light . My wife too got up . I told her that I was having this severe pain in my chest . She looked perplexed and lost ! I am the doctor ! Anyway , I told her to get me a warm drink . As she went to the kitchen , I sat and thought what is happenning ! After an eternal moment , I realised that it was my heart crying out ! I was having a heart attack ! Holy God ! Immediately I reflected within and became calm ! I picked up my phone and called a cardiologist . He was a very dear friend and sort of country cousin ! He was shocked to hear about my pain . Told me that he was coming immediately ! I told him to calm down and go to the specialist hospital and start arrangements for my coming ! I decided to let my wife drive me to the hospital ! Dont ask me if that was a right decision ! I wont advice that !

My wife drove me very gently to the hospital . It was not very far anyway.

Unknown to anyone , I was already going into my inner space and looking for answers !

I just got a warm comforting feeling that all is well and okay !!

Keeping that to myself , I went along with my external living and the new drama !

As I reached the hospital , I was met by my cardiologist friend and immediately carried to a trolley . The rolling trolley was taken to the ICU . Yes , intensive care unit which was also the CCU ! Coronary care unit ! Whatever the reason that was how it was then !

Immediately, I the healthy doctor who was seeing patients in the morning , was now in the intensive care and being treated ! Seeing life from a patients perspective is probably essential for a doctor !

Medical machines , cardiac monitors , drips and more blood being taken out from any vein they could find . What a scary drama for the unintiated . All hell or heaven was loose !

I was just fascinated and things were happenning so fast . I dont remember having any fear . I was silently in my quiet space ! As my cardiologist was going out , I called a nurse to please call back the cardiologist ! She was abit incomfortable . I than had to tell her that I too was a medical doctor and that  cardiologist was my country cousin ! 

He was immediately called back . I told him that I was still feeling a deep pain in my left chest .

After a moments thought, he told me that was going to give me an intracardiac injection !

An injection into my heart !

He looked concerned 1 I was able to reassure him and told him to go ahead with he felt best .

That is when my life story takes a major turn !

I suddenly found myself in an amazing world ! I see myself standing and talking to this beautiful Being with a long flowing beard ! He wore a turban and was actually radiating with an amazing light ! I knew who he was , as I had meet him years ago in the foothills of the Himalayas in India ! He had died a few years before . I was very pleased to see and meet him ! The place was just magical ! He told me that I was dead !! I just could not understand him ! I told him that I was talking to him ! He smiled and told me that my body is lying in the hospital bed and I am now in my non physical or spiritual form ! 

I just could not believe that ! He went on to inform me that I was always wondering about death and had done so much of thinking and reading that it was time to let me have an actual experince !!

I was just lost for words and felt so pleased . I asked if this was true for all people ? He answered that of course it was true for all people !! No exceptions !! Wow !

I felt very happy and thanked him . I told him that I am very happy being with him and wanted to just stay there with him ! 

Thats when he told that I will have to go back to my body and keep living and enjoying the Human form !! I also told me that there is nothing to fear now ! Told that we are always being taken care off ! We are never left alone ever !

We are all connected and come from the same source ! Never ever separated !

So , here I am back in this Human form sharing my wonderful life !

Did it really happen ? Was it some hallucination ?!  Too many drugs in me ! Maybe !

I will stop now from this rather lengthy episode . 

Will share more later . Till then God Bless .

Amar.

Why I still trust Death as my Best Friend !

Why I Still Trust Death as My Best Friend !

This is my very dear and personal story . 

My story begins over 40 years ago ! I was studying medicine in a college in India. It is December 1972 . My final examintion to graduate is in April 1973 . So , we are all in full swing towards wanting to graduate and become medical doctors .

I had this habit of sitting quietly in the mornings . Call it what you like . To me it was a place where I went to be me ! 

Now, suddenly , as I went into this inner space , I felt and saw a strange sort of darkness . It brought a feeling of gloom and doom !

I immediately thought of my dear loving father ! Why of my father, I dont understand . Anyway, I thought it was best to just write a letter and ask my father if he was all right . Now, this the era of slow letter writing and actually posting them ! No mobile phones , email , internet or whatsoever !

My father was a young medical doctor in the island of Borneo . It was part of Malaysia . 

So , it took some time for the letters to go to and fro . The reply came from my father that he was perfectly fine and healthy ! Was waiting for me to finish my final exams . Well , what could I say .

However, as I sat and went into my inner space , the same uncomfortable feeling got even stronger ! What do I do ?! Well , just write again to my father as the feeling always pointed towards him ! 

Waited for the reply .It came back with the same message that he was well! Back to my inner space and now I started to feel very sad and tearful ! Wrote another letter and got the same reply, but now from Kuala Lumpur ! Why was my father in KL ! He told me he was holidaying !

I was getting uncomfortable and worried. I talked to my friends and they just laughed it off as my crazy ways. Spoke to a professor and the same reply to get ready for the exams . It was now nearing April 1973. Exams just a few weeks away !

My inner world was another story ! Something dark and uncomfortable was now practically pushing me to do something ! 

Now , this is really out of context to my way of living. I thought what to do ! Everybody around , including my dear father told me to study and go for my exams .

As irrational as it may seem or sound , I actually packed my bag and ran away from my college one dark night !!

I was in a place called Poona which was not far from the than Bombay ! ( now both cities are called Pune and Mumbai )

Ask me not , how i managed to get a flight back to KL.

As I arrived in KL , my father with my family were at the airport to recieve me . It was an old style or ritual to come to airports in numbers to recieve a loved one!

Father appeared pleased to see me ! Infact , all seem pleased and  happy . No major drama from anyone why I have ran away and left my final medical college examinations !!

To cut the story short, the next day I asked my father why he looked weak ? He smiled and told me to see if I can take a medical history to  see what was wrong with him !!? 

Okay ! So , let the game begin! 

In no time I was able to diagnosis that my dear loving father at the wonderful age of 49 years was dying of Leukemia ( Blood Cancer ).

How is that to the mystery of the inner world and the outer world !

My dear father died two (2) months after that !!

That is enough for now !

Now why should I not trust my inner friends !

Amar.

How Death is My Best Friend !

Yes ! Death is My Best Friend !

Today I am going to share with you my secret weapon towards being free !

From very early in life ,Death became my best friend ! Somehow and somewhere I became aware that

things do break down . I also realised that living things die ! I lived in a beautiful hill station . My days were full with my adventures climbing the hills around my home . Walking along jungle streams . Just being fascinated with the wild ! Hahaha . Now you know why I call this blog , the WildOne !

In all this wonderful ventures , I enjoyed watching butterflies and grasshoppers . Butterflies were so gentle , tender , soft , harmless and beautiful that I just loved them sooo much ! Even today I am still in love with them !

Butterflies were my first teachers and still are ! We all know how they change so completely from one form to another . It simply is amazing to say it casually ! To me , it is mindblowing ! A caterpillar crawling around the leaves and goobling them so fast . Then suddenly it becomes something else !

It actually goes and wraps itself in a blanket ! Like it has gone into some mysterious trance . Then out of all this calm , a most amazingly beautiful butterfly comes out ! What a transformation ! Wow !

The grasshopper too were amazing play mates . I would lie in the wild grass and wait for them .

Then like a predator , I will slowly crawl near them and catch them . All this was great fun and I enjoyed the company of my wild friends .

The realisation came that they die ! They could and would stop moving and stop playing with me !

That got my tiny mind thinking . I saw leaves falling of the branches dying too . I was really confused and wondering with my new knowledge . So , I went to my source to ask for answers ! My mother was my greatest source ! She had to be ! She was my mother and she brought me , made me or whatever ! I of course could not understand all this stuff about my birth than .

She told me in the simplest of terms that all life will change and eventually die !! Wow !!

When I heard that , I was dumbfounded ! Really , is that the end of all living things ! Yes, that was the great realisation !

She also told me not to worry about all this stuff as the Great God will take care and looks after us all.

Who or what or where was this God is another big venture . I will leave that for another big day .

Today, its about death becoming my friend !

With that realisation , I went about my happy life but always thinking and wondering about death .

The more I thought the more I realised that , that is the absolute end reality !

I played , made new friends and grew as any normal child . However, my private thoughts were always

lingering on the deep questions . I also saw that almost all around me were not thinking , concerned or worrying about such issues ! They went about their lives as if they are going to live on forever ! Even the fairy stories always ended with such phrase as , ' they will live happily ever after ' ! Wow !

It appeared like some conspiracy ! A grand conspiracy on a very grand scale too !

I just kept watching everyone and went along superfically but was deeply concerned deeply !

By now I was well doctrinated into my culture, beliefs and tradions and all the stuff that now I call the tame life ! I was taken to places of worship without my choice or consent 1 I wanted to run around and play or just be . I enjoyed just walking or wondering around aimlessly to on lookers , but, to me I was in deep thoughts or comtemplation !

At times I was forced to sit inside the place of worship and had to endure painful sermons meaning little to me ! This drama went on for a long time ! It was for me just to do it and not question why !

Meanwhile , my inner world was going elsewhere ! 

Finally one day I took a bold step and decided to catch the bull by the horn !! 

I went up to the high priest as a boy of about 14 plus years ! Have I got it right ! I was 14 plus years !

The priest with his long flowing beard and serious nature looked at me and wondered what was my purpose . I simply told him if I could have about 15 minutes of his time and that of the whole congregation to let me share a real truth ! He looked lost and confused , to say the least .

No one of my age had ever requested such a request . Anyhow , seeing my serious stand and look , he 

actually gave me the permision to share my truth !

I was overjoyed and went about telling my mother , family and friends to please come to listen to my truth !! 

Strangely , in my excitment and all the burning fire to share my truth , I never had any thought of stage fear !

To cut the story short , on the appointed day , as all the people were seated , the priest told them that there is a surprise . I was introduced and I stood up and came to the front to address the people!

The stage was all set !

I started to inform the people that I have realised that the only reality is that we are all going to die !

They all looked surprised and awake as though I was telling them something new !

They probably were shocked to see a young boy tell them that ! I went on to share that I have realised that we should all take this matter very seriously . We  must do some deep thinking on this very essential matter of truth sand reality.  Went on to express that like any journey , we need to prepare and know about our trip . Also know what to pack , and know all the useful and essential stuff . If we do so much preparation for our worldly journeys , than it is very important that we get to know and understand death !

I can tell you , they were not amused ! Especially the older folks . The young or my group were thrilled with my bravery to make my stand !

I realised that no one really got my message ! That was the first and the last time I ever spoke again in a place of worship from my tradition background . I stepped back to let them enjoy their happy dramas .

However , my inner journey went on in earnest ! I went quiet and started sitting still . That was the beginning of my inner travels ! 

It was within those inner reflections, thoughts, and silence that I started to befriend Death !

Death became my constant companion ! Just a tap away from me ! I would talk to it and also get advice from it ! I also could know what was essential from the trivial or petty ! I was getting great wisdom from my best friend , Death . 

Death guided me to wonderful adventures and actually told me not to ever fear anything ! Wow !

Death was not some dark fearfull entity that people had made it into ! It was not a bogey man ! No, not at all . Death , Life , All Knowing , Source and all else are the same names of the Big Loving Mystery !

Dare to get close and see the magic that happens !

Will share more tales  as we walk this wonderful pathless path towards a gateless gate to the beyond ! Hahaha . 

Thank you for listenning . Please forgive if it was long .

Till we meet agin . Love and God Bless .

Amar.

The Real Is Changeless . The Unreal is Everchanging .

The Real is Changeless . The Unreal is Everchanging .

Today let me share my view on this real that is changeless and the unreal that is everchanging .

Just stop whatever you are doing and look around at you body , others and the environment .

Watch and observe carefully . Notice all that is changing . All forms be it us or others and all

structures , forms and things big and small are all changing constantly !

Now , see if you can observe if there is anything that appears not to change ?

Space remains changeless !

I can throw out my furniture and fill my room with anything that I can imagine .

I can break the walls and create a bigger room . I can even break the walls completely .

Maybe even buld a skyscraper in the same space .

Whatever I do to forms has no bearing to space whatsoever !

Space remains ever present in the background without any fuss !

It places no demand on us . It does not expect anything from us or any form .

Space knows that it holds everything !

All the stars , planets , mountains , oceans and galaxys are within this space !

All the micro worlds are in this space too ! 

The tinest of the tiny , atoms , electrons , sub-atomic stuff are within space !

Space contains all and every possible form and yet it remains ever so quiet and

silent ! 

Have you or anyone ever noticed any grumblings or disapproval from space ?

Space never ever makes its presence felt and yet without space nothing can be !

When you become aware of this ever present space and see the ever changeless 

forms coming and going , you come to a wonderful sense of peace !

From this we become aware that Life is ever present yet life forms break and all our

names or labels are whipped out . Life remains ever present as does space !

Once we become aware of this reality , we come to the realisation that our bodies will 

fall away like some old stuff . Nothing happens to Life !

The real you is beyond birth and death ! 

The body form will remain as long as it is needed .

Our discomfort and pain is because we have identified our reality with the ever changing

body !

Step back or focus on the timeless ever present space and watch how peaceful we become !

All the fears linked to the body become meaningless as it becomes clear that the body will 

keep changing and eventually break down .

Thank you. Amar.

The Inner Reality .

The Inner Reality.

I was reading a post by+ Sania Anand ,  where she was sharing this wonderful quote .

If an egg is broken by outside force , life ends . If broken by inside force , life begins !

That really got me thinking ! Yes, all great and really original stuff comes from within !

All reality is an inner perspective !

Really alchemy is from within which is our Source connectivity !

What a wonderful joy to know that we are All connected to the Source within !

I really mean All !

However, almost all are searching and seeking from the external world !

We are so external oriented that we run all over the world desperately looking for

the mystery of life and everything and yet , time and again the really meaningful 

answers always come from within us !

Almost all great sages, masters , prophets and anyone of some lofty standing always

point towards the inner reality .

I still remember so clearly as a child when I read the Gospel by St Luke .

He clearly writes that Christ saying : The Kingdom of God is Within !

Seek and the door shall/will open ! 

That was a mystery to my child mind, yet I also realised that there was always an 

inner joy within me ! I saw the wonderful world and people and felt love and happiness .

I loved everything and was so pleased . I actually thought or believed that love was an

outer magic that I had to seek , chase or get .

When it dawned on me that everything came from within , I was so utterly surprised

and pleased that I actually felt like a real billionaire !

I walked with my chest out and still do !! Hahaha .

I told people around that I am the King of Love !

I am no beggar who need to beg for love !

I actually shower, express , share and give love !

When you come to that realisation that everything is love , you are

now walking in heaven !

When I love myself and know that all is within , than everything changes .

I love  as a flower gives out it's fragance ! That is the very nature of the flower.

Love simply is my real nature ! I love you as a form of expression . I love you to share myself with you .

I want you to also love yourself and be you . Thats the real wonderful relationship that flowers !

All else is on shaky grounds and will slowly turn sour or boring .

It simply is not true and natural .

No one can go on being pressured and forced into loving someone !

It must come from within . That's true love !

So , the real and true things are within .

When you love someone without any expectations or needs , it is so liberating and free .

No demands , no expectations and no wants !

Just be and allow the other to be too .

What is the fuss about ?! After all everything is love and loving anyway !

When you love yourself completely and fully , there is no way you will feel empty .

You are so full of love that it is just pouring or flowing always .

Will stop now . You need rest with so much to take in and I am aware of over feeding you !

Till you digest take care and Yes, I love you All !

Amar.

Today was a Wonderful Day !

What an amazing day

I was living in my quiet place . I enjoyed being me ! I was simply amused and fascinated by everything me !

Just watching the movements of my hands . Sometimes seeing a face in the mirror and wondering who was that !

You see , I have never really seen my face ever ! It's other people views and the reflection or mirrors !

Is that really me ? 

I read a book by an amazing and wonderful English man who actually wrote and talked about how we all have assumed and accepted the face we see in the mirror as our own ! He disagrees ! I too have experimented and feel that I really dont know about my face ! It's a strange and wonderful feeling to realise that i am actually faceless ! 

Anyway , today , my amazing day is related to Google + !

I am so new to the big big Google world ! 

I walked into it whlie wandering in the Wild ! Now it is amazing and wonderful to see, watch and learn what a mindblowing , jaw dropping , eye popping world this is !!

Such wonderful and beautiful people everywhere ! 

Just amazing what they all are doing ! 

Creative, sharing , caring , loving , being and expanding all at the same time !!

I just love the energy that is arising !

I walked into the wonderful Google world and felt like a child in a candy store !

Really fun time connecting with all loving and beautiful people !

Thank you and love you .

We are the people and we are One !

This is our Home !

We will take care of all things , big and small .

All are important !

Wonderful people , wonderful world !

Thank you.

Amar.

Having a Human Experience !

How does a Spiritual Being experience Being Human !

We are all Spiritual Beings who have come to this Human form to experience life as an ever

changing form !

What I observe is that we have got it the other way around !

Mostly , every one is struggling to become Spiritual in one form or another !

Our original nature is Spiritual and will always remain so !

We are never born and we will never die !

This terms are simply too strong !

Once we can understand or comprehend our true/real nature , than everything takes on 

a very different colour ! 

Than being Human becomes the most fascinating and wonderful adventure !

Everything and every moment is absolutely mindblowing !

I just want to laugh and dance at my mind tries to understand me !

I ( in reality there is no such thing ! ) am beyond Time/Space !

Mind is limited in both Time/Space concept .

That is the very nature of  form .

Form be it physical or sublte has a structure . Structure becomes limited .

I as Formless is non structured and cannot be trapped in Time/Space context .

I as Formless enjoys becoming form to express, extend and experience Itself !

The real truth is that the Formless and the Everchanging Form are always One and Ever connected !!

Once we can become aware of that , than all the confusion is over !

Rest of eveything , be it living or dying becomes fun time !

Time to stop as the physical body needs to rest !

I can go on for ever !! HaHaha .

Goodnight.

Amar.

Coming Out From the Deep Forest !

Every Step in the Wild is Exciting and Scary !

 A moment ago from being a very private individual living in the Wild , I took the bold step of  wanting
to come to meet others in this wonderful wild world !
I signed up to share my rumblings with others !
It's like coming out from the Deep Forest !
In the Wild , I lived on my terms , accepting the challenges of the unknown and uncertainty .
Just to share with you what I mean .
I experience the birth of every day as the most amazing and mysterious happening !
I go to sleep or am taken to the sleep world in a magical way !
Till this day , sleep actually fascinates me !
Anyway, we will talk of that on another day in detail !
Today , I just want to share a glimpse of how I see a new day .
At the first sigh of awaking , I keep lying and slowly open my eyes to see where I am !
It's always like I have just come from some place called Home !
Seeing my physical body and getting up is just amazing ! Seeing , hearing and feeling and all the
sensations are so exciting !
I know that you may be thinking what am I saying to such an ordinary everyday event !
To me there is no such everyday !
Now , Today is all that I am living in !
As I am sitting here in my quiet room and typing away on the keyboard , I can feel the wonderful
and magical sense of ' Life ' energy or more precisely a tingling sensation pleasantly dancing in and
around me ! It's a warm cozy happy feeling ! I am seeing my fingers dancing on the keyboard and my
feelings and thoughts enjoying the fun and magic that is happening !
Now , there is no name to much that is seen or being experienced !
As I get up to walk , I really am wondering how my body is able to balance itself !
I mean , the phenomena of living  life is so wonderfully magical !
Every sound fascinates , every thing makes me want to just watch or observe .
I have set watching ants moving about and feel myself melting among them !
Most of the time I have connected to them deeply !
I have a difficulty having a shower in my tiled bathroom if ants are crawling around !
I simply cannot see them drowning in my bath !
Many a times , I have actually rescued or pulled the ants out of a drop of water !
The joy of doing a simple act makes me happy and joyful .
I have watched the ants drying their bodies , whipping their face with their feelers and getting up to walk about slowly ! They sure look pleased and thankful !
I am going to stop here now , as I have a feeling to get up and go for a meal !
Till we meet again , thank you for coming into my magical world .

Simply go with the Flow of Living !

Simply go with the Flow of Living !

As I woke up from my sleep , I was lying in bed and wondering at how we have accepted and taken 

our sleep for granted . Sleep like the rest of Life and Living becomes part and parcel of just being .

We grow into living and get busy doing thousands of activities all our life. It's great , wonderful and

okay to be doing our living stuff .

I just wanted to step away from my activities and wonder at the life that is expressing this living !

Let me try to explain what i mean . I know that I go to sleep when I am sleepy . How do I actually fall

asleep !? I want to be like a child who is amazed and fascinated with everything . I dont want my 

mind cluttered with all sorts of learned techie stuff to take away my wonderful magical living .

My head touches the pillow and I am gone from my waking world to another mysterious world of 

sleep and dreams ! What happens there is beyond my awaressness or understanding .

My physical body functions perfectly without my presence ! I am not around ! I have gone to another state or level of living ! My heart beats perfectly and my blood flows as it normally does. My kidneys , brain , liver

and the whole body goes on functioning normally as it always does !. 

Where I am ? What has happened to me ? 

Than , as mysteriously as I went to sleep , I wake up to continue to be me again !!

Who or what is in charge here ? 

I dont think or feel I am in charge of Life or living !

Of course , I have bought into the belief that I am in charge or at least that I know that I know !!

I feel I dont know ! Yes, I have all sorts of clever words and explanations given to me by clever people .

Clever people have always been around on our planet ! 

Thay have always told us things . 

They told us that the world was flat and our ancestors believed these clever people !

They told us a long time ago that all heavenly objects moved around our planet Earth and we believed 

that too ! 

We can easily believe in all sorts of things when told by clever people .

These clever people seem to know about everything !

I am not so sure now about that any more !

Who know what they will tell me next !

I am told that I am living in a Universe that has no beginning or no end !!

I have been trying to understand that for a very long time and I still am lost and confused about this infinite stuff !

I have tried thinking of how big is big or how small is small and on that too I am always left wondering !

Today , I have to leave my thoughts and feelings here as I am again feeling sleepy !

Good night !

The WildOne is a Free Spirit .

The WildOne is a Free Spirit .

We were all  born wild and free ! Born to experience life and living as it unfolds .

WildOne is a free spirit who simply wants to explore , expand , express and experience

everything with an open mind .

WildOne has only one agenda !

To experience life passionately and joyfully .

The Wild One has experienced that if one becomes quiet and still from within , a whole

new magical and mysterious world opens !

Life and living starts to be ' Felt ' !

This felt feelings are experienced as blissful and blessful always !

A sense of joy and happiness of an unearthly nature !

The WildOne can feel that the Body/Mind aspect is ever changing yet at some deeper or 

outer dimension there is a sense of  changeless awareness that seems timeless and also

spaceless !!

The experience of living becomes aware of a sense being ! It's more like beingness ! 

Everything  within and without  is just expressing itself as a process !!

At this stage words are not very helpful ! Thoughts too appear helpless !

One just feels ! Even the sense of one becomes blurred !

Today, the WildOne has decided to share his wild self further .

With such an amazing and joyful experience , just being alife seems to be complete !

Just try to imagine how or what it feels every nano moment ! 

An ordinary everyday experience becomes unique , extraordinary and mindblowing !

This is how or why the WildOne is a free spirit !

Living in the Wild .

Living in the Wild .

I like living in the wild . Wild gives me a sense of adventure , excitment , romance , mystery

and even fear !

All the above elements empower me and enhance my life energies .

I am sort of forced to live in the present moment ! Living in the now is very refreshening 

and attentively focusing !

I am alert and yet not stressed as it happens in the tame setting !

I feel more of being than of doingness !

Being present in the moment and yet alert is strangely relaxing !

This sense of being present makes me more connected to myself and my surroundings .

Living in the wild is natural to our optimum wellbeing .

There is a wonderful interdependent and interlinked feeling that is humbly health !

Yes, we are always mindful of the uncertainity and unpredictability nature of life and living .

We respect everything around and never take anything for granted .

We have to be healthy to live in the wild . We must be able to chase and equally run from danger !

There is no place for lazy , sluggish and overweight people !

We simply and naturally live and become health oriented . 

It becomes our living culture . 

That was our natural heritage until we became tame and domesticated .

Yes, it brought much comfort , safety and easy living . It came with a price .

Now , we are easily bored , stressed , irritabilite and just eat as a pleasure .

It appears as progress yet somewhere deep inside we have lost our wild nature .

What does it feel being wild .

How is the word Wild experienced .

Wild instantly brings an image of dangerous, raw, unknown , uncertain ,unpredictalbe nature of anythings.

On the other hand , Tame appears comfortable , friendly , not dangerous and okay to be around with .

I surely would like to keep away from a wild dog . I am okay with a tame dog .

I feel unsafe swimming in a wild flowing river . Swimming in a quiet tame river is fine with me .

Words acquire an image and we create a mindset or belief around words .

Once we get locked into a certain belief , it can become difficult to see beyond that belief .

It creates a baised or prejudiced opinion or view of things .

We go on automatic judgements and assumptions .

Of course , that saves time and we think we can protect ourselves with such assumptions .

However, it locks us in a certain form or thought pattern/structure .

That limits our reality !

We become convinced of our limited life experience .

We actually build a wall around us and get used to living in the so-called protective wall .

Unknown to us , the same wall that protects also becomes our self-created prison !

Coming to my usage of the word , Wild . I simply want to challenge myself and you to see

everything as it is in its original reality !

My original nature as it is . My real self as it is without all the trappings , beliefs and conditionings .

I have endless labels placed on me or covering me .

I am a boy. I am an Indian , Chinese, American or Christian , father , mother , wife , lawyer , and 

thousands of labels that i keep creating all the time .

Is that really me ?

Who or what is my natural or wild self ?

This are the real questions that I like to ask or find out .
Hence , the name WildOne !

I like to keep exploring and sharing my views and opinions with you .

Back from the Wild !

WildOne is back from the Wild ! 

We all need to connect to our Wild Self ! Wild as to native, natural or original self .

Our cultured or acquired self is what has been programmed since we came out

from the womb . We got tamed or domesticated to the ways of the culture in which

we were born into . We acquired that nature and slowly forget our wild self .

This acquired self is where we develop our character and personalty .

This personalty that is a programmed condition becomes our reality !

Infact ,that is the only reality most of us are aware off !

We all quietly accept this reality and create separate realities !

We believe in these separate realities and express them in all our

ways of living . We protect them , defend them and will fight till the

end to hold them as the only reality or truth that we know !

The WildOne has somehow found his wild self and realised how wonderful

and peaceful he feels ! Free from comparing , competative ways of the tamed

ones . They have been trained to struggle , suffer and strive . Infact , these are seen

as noble and rightous achievements ! Virtue in struggle and pain ! Keep swimming

upstream when the water flows downstream ! The tame ones practically see the world

upside down . It all appears normal and worth all their noble effort . They are always 

acquiring something or another . Their needs are never ending . That too is a clever ploy

of the tamers to keep us absorbed in our mindless activities to who knows to what end !

The WildOne has just come to enjoy the experience of being in this form ! That is the 

greatest joy and mystery that is beyond the awareness of the tame ones .

The WildOne sees every moment as unique and everything as a process that is ever 

unfolding to a magical blissful being !