Now , I Just Want To Be !

Now , I Just Want To Be !

I have been writing some topic here and there for some time .

I was sitting at these busy restaurant and having a drink .

Sitting quielty , I saw everybody just talking away !

They had so much to talk about ! 

They appeared excited , waving their hands , expressing with their eyes !

I just sat there watching this noisy chatter and wondering .

Far out , I could see the distant limestone hills with patches of greenery .

It was a hot day . The sky was clear . Some clouds were gathering far around the hills .

It usually rains in the late afternnon . 

The trees across the road looked tired . An occassional passage of wind brought some relief .

Returning myself back to the noisy chattering , I wondered what is so important that must be spoken in such a demanding manner ?

Will all this talking be relevent in a few hours from now !

Who is to say , yet , I feel and think we are just in this excessive habit of talking about nothing much !

I found that being quiet is rather uncomfortable for most people .

Being alone is even more scary to many !

Sitting quietly , sipping my drink , I kept reflecting with my thoughts .

Whatever I talk about or share is an expression of my experience .

That experience comes from a clashing , merging and fusion of knowledge that I have acquired , read or heard . An inner awareness dialogus with the knowingness and some thoughts start to take shape !

How relevent are they to anyone ?!

They too could form a clashing , merging or fusion of some sorts within them !

Who is to say on that !

My drink was finishing . I was still sitting and watching all around me . 

People were still going on chattering , sometimes

loudly , sometime in low voices .

They sure have a lot to share or maybe just needed to fill the emptiness !

I finished my drink and came out from the crowded resturant .

Walked silently back to my home .

I simply was enjoying my sense of being !

I have nothing much to say now !

Take care .

Amar.