The Magic and Mystery of Feeling Contented and Satisfied !

The Magic and Mystery of Feeling Contented and Satisfied !

I have experienced living .

I have been reading for over 50 years !

I have travelled !

I have seen and met people from all walks of life !

From the wealthiest , powerful , religious , politicians , businessmen , simple to the poorest and homeless !

I have heard from the wisest and also shared my own thinking with whoever was willing to listen !

After all these life of this rich experience , I have come to some of my own conclusions to life !

It has nothing grandiose , lofty or secret that I have experienced !

The wise have been sharing their wisdom form the dawn of civilisation !

They often had to pay a heavy price for being so generous and kind hearted !

Some were simply hanged as petty criminals ! Others had to drink poison !

What was their crime ??!!

They were simply sharing a simple way to a life of being happy , peaceful and contented !

Today , we have all the learning's of wisdom available to us online , audio, video and countless books!

We still daily get news of honour killings , rape , murder , wars , dying of hunger , wars and the corrupted mind sets of thousands of leaders and wealthy who control this planet !

Who am I ?!

Who or what can I do ?!

I sit for hours in front of my PC to share what little understanding I have !

The magic and mystery of feeling contented and satisfied is to live quietly !

Knowing that all is within ! 

All experience is always within us ! 

Be it joy , sadness , happiness or bliss !

It is always an inner experience !

The real wealth is within !

Jesus even went as far as to express , that the Kingdom of God is within you !!!

What more do you want to hear !

I have been sharing for about 6 months my thoughts . They are always about sharing the same one message that to be happy , go within !!

There is nothing else to share !

Rest will just be entertainment , of which there is too much !!!

Have fun , take care and good bye !!

Love.

Amar.

The Present State of Affairs !

The Present state of Affairs !

The year is 2014 !

Is it a good year or bad ?!

Are we progressing or decaying ?!

We are all human beings across the planet .

Black , white , brown or yellow are just skin thin !

Thicker still are our deep rooted belief systems , ideologies and ways of thinking !

We have understood some of the laws of nature and have developed amazing technologies and scientific understanding of matter and energy !

Yet , in the field of psychosocial arena we are just as primitive as we were a thousand years ago !!

We have hardly any understanding of our very basic patterns of behaviours !

There is a deliberate and real reason to be like that !

The name of the game is control , manipulation , corruption and fear !

These are powerful tools used to curb any free thinking for most .

A few who manage to see through the veil of this drama are just too few !

They can easily be ignored or even silenced !

The law of power belongs to the majority in belief only !

The reality is very different !

Life for the majority is a sad struggle for the daily needs !

No time to stand and enjoy the beauty of life and nature !

That will be dangerous for the controllers !

People might just enjoy the freedom of just being !

Modern day slavery is more about the mind then the body !

The belief systems are the strongest cages we are all trapped in !!

Some belief systems are so strongly created that you are in no position to even question it's position !

Yours is to do and die and not to question why !

This is the present state of affairs !

The year is 2014 !

That is all for now !

Take care. Love.

Amar.

Can We Create Our Reality ?!

Can We Create Our Reality ?!

Let me share some of my personal stories and see how they come across to you ?

I have used 2 words , create and reality above .

Create is something that you or me can do . We are all creative beings . We can create physical and non physical things and forms all the time . Create a painting . Write a creative book . Create a good impression . Create a good mood by doing this or that ! I feel good and happy when I am with so and so or doing things that I like . So , we can create .

What is reality ?

Is it the same for everybody ? 

A person living in a hut and struggling to just find food . He is poor and always struggling . He feels that is his reality .

A person living in a palace . He is rich and has all material comforts . That is his reality .

What , if can switch their roles ! 

Both will be shocked ! It is not their reality ! The poor man will find it hard to see himself in a palace!

The rich person too will feel shocked and not accept his reality !

Is our reality solid and physical or is it a set of beliefs , ideas and thoughts ?

One person beliefs that giving up all his material comforts and living in a cave will take him towards the meaning of life .

Another beliefs that having as much material will bring that illusive joy or happiness in life !

That is their realities ! 

Our realities are not the same ! 

We have separate realities and yet think it is the same for all !

Is that your experience ?

One day , an important exam was going to take place . All my class mates were studying and feeling very stressed ! I could feel the tension around . The fear and expectation to pass was very real .

As I pondered the situation , I decided that I want to fail and experience that feeling ! So , I handed in a blank paper to the shock of my classmates and teachers . My teachers tried to coax me to at least write something or they warned that I will get no marks at all ! I told them that I am ready and prepared for that ! They simply could not understand me . I walked out from the examination hall feeling very satisfied and joyful !! I had achieved what I wanted to experience ! I walked out among trees , seeing the blue sky , birds and the beautiful sun . People out in the streets were going about their life happily . That was their reality .
I sat in a small stall while having coffee and reflected on my action and situation .
I felt very peaceful and contented ! I realised that I will decide how I am going to live my life .
I will live on my terms and take full responsibility for all my livings !
A few months later , when my teachers and classmates felt that I was a weak student or simply careless , I decided to study and sat for my exams .  I knew I had done well as I could answer all the questions easily .
When the results came they did not expect much from me . I simple sat back and enjoyed !
I nearly topped the University ! I was 3rd in the University !
Nobody could understand . they were shocked and surprised . Not me !
My reality was very different .
At another stage of my life , I had this very strong feelings and visions that my father was going to die! I was thousands of miles in India and my father worked as a doctor in an island called Borneo , part of Malaysia . I kept writing to him and he kept informing me to study for my coming exams and get through to become a doctor . I was a medical student in the final year.
I told my classmates , teachers about my very strong feelings , visions and all ! They just could not understand my reality ! Told me to just get ready for the exams .
Finally , one night , against all odds and advice , I just decided to run away in the middle of the night to go to my father ! That is really a very strange and crazy move from the normal way of living !
Even my father kept insisting that he is okay !
I simply trusted my reality !
There , I was flying to Malaysia from India to see my father who I feel was going to die !!
Left my final exams against ever ones reality , even my own father who was a doctor too !

What do you think happened ?!!
He was dying of Leukaemia !! He died about 2 months after I was with him !!
Thank , whatever , I was able to really be with my wonderful father before he passed on !
That was and is my reality !
I have come to accept that my reality is my unique reality within the same world of others !
Let me explain further : I live in Kuala Lumpur now . My KL is unique to me ! You cannot live in my KL !! You cannot even share the same room that I live in ! My space and time is only mine !!
My life and living is unique to me and my ways ! I am always happy , peaceful and contented ! It has nothing to do with my external circumstances !! They keep changing , but I am always the same !!
Can you get a drift of my sharing ?!
I feel and experience myself as an energy being !! The physical form and all outside is ever changing ! I Am the same !! Always just being and aware !
So , my reality is my choice !
Sorry , this topic is abit strange and twisted at the mind level !
Til we meet again . Take care .
Love. Amar.

Keep Life and Living Simple !

Keep Life and Living Simple !

I had just finished my day's work . To call it work is just a word that we humans use to label a certain functional aspect of living ! I don't think or feel that I work ! 

In a classical sense people see work as a form of being serious and formal .

I feel that I am playing ! 

I come into my so called office which is a medical clinic in a very relaxed and easy way . I am always wearing simple T-shirts and pants. My clinic appears more like my personal den ! I have my books , my computer and everything is just right . I always greet my staff warmly and they too appear pleased to see me ! These 2 wonderful ladies have been with me for 15 years faithfully ! We are like a family!

My patients too are pleased seeing me as I am warmly waiting to be and listen to their problems , worries and concerns . 

It is a peaceful , warm , friendly and wonderful setting to be in !

Everybody is at home ! All feel relaxed ! All are welcomed with a smile !

This is a place where my patients come to calm themselves from their rushed , restless and stressed living !

Here , in my clinic , there is no rush , restless or stressed feeling !

They feel listened to and cared ! 

How is that happening or possible ?!

It is possible because I choose to keep my life and living simple !

I am not rushing anywhere ! I have no need to be restless too !

I am here to be with my people who need me !

Just being present and calm has a magical effect on people who are restless or stressed !

Soft warm lights , pleasant background music to calm , always gentle and welcoming is how the magic of healing works or is happening ! I am doing nothing actually !

All is happening spontaneously as we step back and allow the natural process of well being to proceed without interfering with clever words !

I have come to realise that our body and mind is an amazingly mystery that is always healing itself , if we let it ! Just give it the space and time ! 

In an atmosphere of peace ,joy and love , the whole biochemistry of our inner systems become active in a positive way ! The cells are all conscious and can react to our state of being !

Love heals !

Just be present ! 

If , anyone is beyond my scope of treatment , they are referred to the right person.

I always explain that life is beyond the ever changing form ! Claim back and focus on life !

Living becomes a joy when life is allowed to flow gently !

Just try to understand , what can ever happen to energy , electricity or light itself ?!

Nothing ! It will just keep expressing as it is needed . 

The material form will follow it's own law of change towards simplicity ! Scientist call it Entropy !

What does it matter what we call it today ! yesterday it had a different word , tomorrow it again can change ! 

As our learning or awareness and understanding unfolds , we keep creating new words and expressions !

The real is just an experience that is beyond any such words !!

Love is love ! I can express it in a thousand ways or just be quiet ! 

A gentle touch can say more then many words ! A look is more expressive !

Keep life simple and you will experience the glow of a blissful living !

That is all for now !

Just be !

Take care . Love.

Amar.

Some After Thoughts After My Writings !

Some After Thoughts After My Writings !

I decided to sit in this corner cafe in this very busy hospital , last night .

I had just visited my mother who is admitted in this hospital for some lung complications .

She is getting better . She is 86 now . She lost her husband or my father 41 years ago !

She is a tough woman . 

Anyway , while sitting in this cafe , I ordered some

 pumpkin soup and a warm bun .

As I ate , I was watching the endless procession of people that were passing me !

There were the sick , then the visitors , relatives , friends and more who formed the passing people .

It appeared like a fair , as most were talking and appeared joyous !

This were people who were feeling better !

The very ill patients were in the wards .

Was just wondering what was behind those faces ?

They all appeared to put on a brave and smiling face in public !

That is the way of our society .

We like to hide our pain and sorrow . It is a private affair .

My after thoughts are that I am just an ordinary chap , living an average life but have a sense of understanding that makes my life extraordinary !

I have realised that whatever happens , we are able to go on with our life and living !
I still remember how lost I felt when I lost my father ! I was 25 years .
More then the loss , was trying to come to terms with death which was for ever and ever !
I kept thinking and wondering how can we go on living or pretending when just around the corner or anytime , the hand of death can come !
There , I sat for days thinking , wondering and struggling to understand the meaning of living in an infinite Universe !
We live in an Infinite Universe and yet behaviour other wise !
I already had inclination towards the mystery of life , and this issue was my tipping point !
If death is real , then how do we live ?!
That was how I sorted out thinkers , philosophers and wise sages to see what they thought .
So , I read , pondered , reflected , thought and meditated and started seeing life through their minds !
I was and am still fascinated by Buddha and his life story . Here was a to be king , who left everything to search and seek answers to the same mystery !!
The suffering that we bring upon ourselves is our own doing !!
We get wrapped around beliefs and get attached to forms that are ever changing !
We know that every form is changing and will crumple ! Yet , we hold on to such foolish ways !
We have wonderful realised people who share their amazing life of bliss by letting go and living in the present moment . Now , is all we have !! Live in the now !
Am I strong , or have some will power or any other super characters ?!
No ! I have just accepted the reality and live as a humble nobody !
I live and appreciate life and living , yet , I am always mindful of the ever changing form of my body /mind !
Within this context of living , a wonderful sense of relief has become a new reality !
As I have accepted this temporary status of living , I also don't have to carry any burden that most are carrying !!
Live in this moment ! Be real and genuine ! Be loving and kind ! Be compassionate !
Why ?
As I am just passing through and so are you , why not share a kind and loving relationship !
Is that difficult or strange ?!
We are all the same !!
No matter who or what you are ! Your worldly status means nothing in an Infinite Universe !!!
That is my simple home grown way of living !
So be it !
Take care my dear lovely friends . Love.
Amar.

The Illusions We Have Created !

The Illusions We have created !

It is just before dawn . There is a certain peacefulness all around . It feels good !

The human mind is still asleep ! The restlessness is in their dreams !

I move very gently towards the lonely road that goes to the park .

There is an occasional bird calling out to start the day.

Some elderly people are already up and walking to keep fit .

Their children will do that later some day when awareness comes to them .

Now let them enjoy their sleep !

What am I doing , so early , walking towards the park ?

Well , there is a slow moving stream just along the border of the park. 

I am going there to sit quietly on those stone slabs !

The many Gulmoor trees on both sides of the stream spread and form arches along the quiet steam.

Some women from the nearby dwellings come to collect water and also wash their soiled clothes .

They rub the clothes on some stone slabs and wash in the gentle waters .

Their brass pots are awaiting to be filled with some water to be taken back to their dwellings .

What is my purpose or reason to be here ?!

Actually nothing to be honest ! 

Reason , purpose are smart functions of the mind and thoughts !

Here , by the stream I come to just feel and be something else !

I come to forget what or who I keep creating all day long !!

I come  here not to be the form that appears so important out in my human world !

Here, I am everything and nothing !!

Sitting quietly , my sense of 'I' evaporates into the very surroundings !

Something very peaceful , quiet , full and joyful becomes aware !

That sense of being aware is what i come to be !!

That feels so beautifully complete , contented , joyous and blissful !

Going back to my world of Illusion , I can sit back and enjoy the passing drama that appears so important to humanity !

I wonder why and whatever for they do that !! 

Who knows !

I am simply just passing through this human drama !

Nobody really ! Not important to any one too !

Just a passing shadow !

Take care . Love you.

Amar.

We Are Thinking and Feeling Beings !

We Are Our Thoughts !

There is a tea shack under the big banyan tree . This dilapidated tea stall is just a place I like to be in !

The chai-walla ( tea stall owner ) is an old man who is the warmest person I have met . He knows most of us regulars and always greets us with such warm love . 

Simple wooden tables , some rickety chairs and wooden benches are scattered around his stall . We sit around and feel at home !

The stall is a home away from home ! At the fringe of the city , in the country , towards the villages. I simple like everything about it's location and setting . 

It is a no mans place yet belongs to all !

Villagers , city folks , rich and simple , old and young all feel comfortable and at home there .

While having tea , I always drift away into some far away dream world !

A world where we are connected in oneness , love , respect and value for all things big and small .

The fragrance of my thoughts from the dream world bring joy and a sense of contentment .

Thinking about the world I live in , I always start to ponder and reflect .

We live in a world of thoughts and feelings ! That is our true nature and form .

We have a character or personalty that is based on our thoughts and feelings !

We are a species of thoughts and feelings !

I will say that 80 - 90 % we are all about thoughts ! Non -physical in nature !

We look up to Nelson Mandela , Mahatma Gandhi , Mother Theresa , Abraham Lincoln

and all wise men not because they were physically attractive or the handsomest , pretty or beautiful ( they became all that with their noble characters anyway !! )

They were great because what they thought and expressed in their warm feelings ! 

They brought love , warmth , care and understanding that brought us together in Oneness !

They united us in a higher value that made us feel so much higher and better in our true sense .

All that is about thoughts and feelings !

There is a thought of love and a thought of hatred and fear .

There is a thought of love and oneness and a thought of violence and separation .

One thought expands and brings peace and joy to all . Another simply is painful and destructive .

All this is the world of thoughts and feelings .

That is who we really are ! 

A house of bricks and things is just that till love makes it into a warm home !

A physical human is just that until he/she becomes an expression of love !

Who is Nelson Mandela , Mahatma Gandhi or Mother Theresa to me ??!!

Nobody , until they become icons of the best we humans can be ! 

What makes us the best or worst ??!!

It is our thoughts ! How we think like we do and why ?!

We are Thinking beings !!

Let us be the best we can !

That is our reality !

That is all for now !

Take care .

Amar.

Today I ask You my reader , What would you like me to write on ?

 I ask you my reader , What would you like me to write on ?

 Having lived for over 6 decades ! 

The experience of just living is good enough to express somethings about life and living !

As for me , I have actively been studying , thinking , reflecting about our human living for a long time.

Life as all life forms go , are growing , getting old or running it's course , sometimes getting sick , ill or diseased and finally passing away or simply dying !

That is it !

From the birth till death , we are or can do whatever we like or please us . 

This drama , game , living or whatever other names you want to give is all okay .

What does it mean ? 

What does it matter ?

Whatever subject or knowledge you have or acquire , matters little to me !!

You have this or you have that , so what does it matter !

You will tell me you have a string of degrees of learning .

You tell me you have acquired a few million dollars .

You tell you climb mountains . Go deep sea fishing.Sky diving .

I will tell you , wonderful , great , enjoy and be happy while the fun last !

Then be prepared to pack and leave !

We can laugh , we can cry . It matters little .

Make or decide your game and learn to let go .

You have little choice in the going . It is only a matter of time .

Living is an art and skill !

Live to your hearts content , live fully , enjoy , laugh and do whatever pleases you .

Just remember or come to terms that all this living will not last . It will pass away .

That is a fact . 

Clinging to the past is a waste of time . Thinking of things to come is also waste .

Live now , in the presence and experience life and living as it is !

When you can let go and accept everything in life , then you will enjoy life !

Enjoy the drama and play well !

Learn to win and lose . 

Today , I am just rambling away to let you know that for me nothing really matters any more !!

I have learnt to be in the present moment and just enjoy being !

Everything around and including me is changing constantly moment to moment .

What is there to hold on to ?!!

I see the birds flying . then they are gone .

I see the angry clouds bring rain . Then all is bright and light again .

I see young children running about . Old people sitting or walking slowly .

Life is like seasons . They come and go .

So , I will end for now .

If you have any questions , please feel free to ask ?

Till then , take care .

Love. Amar.

Which Ever Way You look , Life In Form Is A Struggle !

Which Ever Way You look , Life In Form Is A Struggle !

Seeing a tittle as above , one immediately feels that it is sad and bad hearing that !

It feels frustrating to know that most of our living is a constant struggle to just live !

After all the struggle , we will still have to give in and and go !

No matter who you are , where you are or what you are !!

It is the same for every human on this planet !

We can and have glorified with all sorts of concepts , ideas and ways to minimise the reality !

We have created elaborate and complex systems to keep ourselves busy in one form or another to just not be aware that life is just slipping away constantly !

We can pretend to do this or be that , but , the fact remains that all of living is temporary !

We are all going to grow old or perhaps not , we will get ill and finally will just die !

That is the absolute reality and truth !

The rest of the knowledge or wisdom is to soften this impact !

Yes , with so much of learning , research or whatever , we may have prolonged our living , yet we will still have to go !

We may be able to even live a 150 years or even more , so what !

It is still going to pass away !

Die we must from the physical form !!

The sooner we come to this realisation , the better !!

Once , we have accepted this fact with a clear mind , then we are now ready to live fully !!

Only when we are ready to go and yet laugh and enjoy that we are happily letting go of this physical form , can we say that we have mastered the mystery of life and living !!

Now we can live without fear and see the wonder and magic of life !

We can now step back from the ever changing form and see beyond !

We can understand that we as living beings are life itself that is wrapped and identified with a temporary form that will change and will eventually fall away !

Instead of always fearing the changing form , we might as while transcend the very idea of living in this form !!

We are definitely more and above this form !

When we become fully aware of this reality , we can then rightfully become our real Self again !!

Until then , we are going to struggle !

We are Formless Beings who are trying to make living in a form that is just a passing phase !

We come to enjoy the form and also realise that that is all to it !

Forms in any dimensions are still forms !!

Prison in any form is still a prison !!

Call it first class or third class , it is all the same !!

Just become aware and return to your formless reality !

That is our true reality !

All else is struggle !!

Think of it and see for yourself !

That is all for now !

Take care . Love.

Amar.

The Root of Fear !

The Root of Fear !

Fear is the foundation on which all negativity rests !

What is this fear ?

Where does it come from ?

Is it real ?

A definition or an expression I see often is that fear is : False evidence appering real !

Is that true ?

I have been thinking as to what is this fear and what will happen and to whom ?!!

To me the most importent word is , to whom ?!

Until and unless you know that , the grand drama or game will keep going !

To whom ?!!

That understanding is most essential to the root of fear !

That question and answer lies with our identity !

There is an ever changing body and a changeless Self !

This body of ours that started from just 2 cells has been expanding , extending and also changing ever since its very begining !

This form will not stop changing . 

It has its own agenda and reason whatever that is !!

I , that is awareness commonly called the Self , has practically no control over the body !

Thousands or even millions of complex chemicals are performing actions and reactions that is keeping this body functioning . It is just amazing , miraculious and magical ! I have no words to express how wonderful this functioing body is ! 

Yet , I have come to realise and accept that this whole process will keep changing and ultimately pass away to some other level !

If , I identity with this ever changing body , I am always going to be frustrated , confused and fearful !

As, I have no control and don't understand what or why this is going on , I have come to realise that I will not identity with this body !

I also realise that when I am sleeping , I have no clue what is happening again !

My very so called identity just disappears !

Seeing all this merry-go-round , I have drawn my own conclusions as to the grand meaning of life !

Simple observations around has shown me that nothing is going to last here !

Nobody , however great , wealthy , healthy or whatever is going to escape from this drama !

You can be the holiest person , the worst criminal or whatever , you are just passing through !

This body will last as long as it will ! It is not my concern any more !

I am here enjoying this wonderful and fascinating drama !

Fear pops its head whenever I an identitfied with the body !

Fear just vanishes whenever I see myself as the changless Self !!

Sometimes I really enjoy my fears !!

At other times , I just step back from the body identity and smile !

That is my experience !

Others may have some other experience ! That is okay too !

That is all for now .

Take care . Love.

Amar.

Why Do We Have Problems In Life ?

Why Do We Have Problems In Life ?

Across the planet , all humans want the same sense of happiness and peace !

Yet , most are unable to have that !

Both happiness and peace are not things that you can get directly !

They are by products or results of something else !

Healthy , wealthy and wise !

Food , clothing and shelter !

The basics remain about the same for all of us !

As simple and basic life appears , that is where it all ends !

That is where it becomes really complex and complicated !

Our desires , demands and expectations are mind boggling !

Our clever mind has created an amazingly complex and complicated world out there !

At the extreme end of need when really hungry , we just need any food to satisfy our hunger .

On the other hand , when that is not an issue , the same food becomes something else !

It is now about the taste !

The taste has taken our simple need for food to altogether something else !

The desire for taste has created a vast industry for food !

Gourmet foods , international cuisines , rare dishes , fine wines , world class cooks or chefs command a great following !

A meal in some of the finest gourmet outlets can cost unbelievable amount ! Fine wines can go into thousands of dollars !

I saw a whisky bottle that was costing $ 50,000.00 ( Singapore dollars )

The lady informed me that a guy from China bought 2 bottles of that expensive whisky !

I always wonder what does that mean ?!

There are fine dinning sets that can cost thousands of dollars .

So , obviously , some people are finding satisfaction or happiness in such expensive stuff !!

There are people who have achieved the rare distinction of becoming Billionaires on this planet !

Go and watch these people and see if they are glowing with happiness and peace !!

Do they appear blissful and saintly and most loving , kind or whatever ?!!

We always talk of Mother Theresa as a kind , joyful and peaceful person .

Was she a very rich person ?! 

She gave all that she had to the very , very poor people around !

We honour her ! Why ?

I have visited holy retreats called Ashrams in India . People flock there in thousands to seek happiness and peace ! While they are they they do appear happy and peaceful !

Yet , back to their real world , they are back to their misery !

I see expensive branded goods which are mind blowing expensive ! 

Do they bring happiness or peace ?!

People chasing and struggling the whole life to achieve a certain position !

Does that bring that illusive happiness or peace ?!

Then again , people travel all around the world seeking , spending and coming home tired !

So , we run around all over the world seeking that illusive happiness and peace , yet , it is always right here , Within You !!

We have problems in life and we all go out wards looking when the solution is always within yourself!

" I Want Happiness ! " Wise Sages , Buddhas will tell you to drop the I , as it is your ego ! then simply drop the the want as that is desire . then you are left with happiness !!

It is simple yet made complicated by our minds !

Wish you all happiness and peace !

Take care . 

Love.

Amar.

The Form and the Formless Realities !

The Form and the Formless Realities !

I thought that I will take a break and just be !

It was not meant to be !!

I had a visit from a young man who is going through a very painful period in his life .

He was deeply involved with a girl which is quite normal and natural . 

The girl broke the relationship and left him for another person . Again , very normal happening !

This poor fellow took that so badly that he wanted to end his life !

Life had no meaning left for him !

That is where I come in . Also normal in my life !

It has become my career and passion to be there for such people !

Now , coming to my tittle : Form and Formless realities .

I was explaining that there are two major events , happenings or ways of our existence that we are experiencing . That applies to all of the human race or species !

There is a world of forms that is known to all and they are aware to a certain degree as I will explain .

Then , there is also a world of the formless that few can understand yet !

We have physical forms and non physical forms . 

Physical forms are our bodies , all other material forms that we see around . 

Trees , birds , ants , buildings , mountains , forest , cars , shoes , clothes and all else !

Then , we have ideas , concepts , theory , beliefs , traditions , dogmas , culture and all forms that are non physical !

That is simple to see and understand . 

All forms are limited because they are in time and space ! 

They will not last for ever ! 

Eventually they will all break down !

It can be a day or a billion years or more !!

No form will last ! Final !

Then , there is the world of the Formless !

The formless is beyond any structure , time or space !!

It is changeless as it has no form to change !

It can or may express in a variety of ways , but it is still formless !

Energy is formless ! Beingness or awareness is formless . Life energy too is formless !

Forms will break , but the formless will always be constant !

Buildings will crumple or fall , but the space remains intact !

Space remains constant .

These two major divisions rule our lives ! 

Especially and mostly the world of forms ! 

We are all attached and have identified with forms in one form or another .

We focus and can easily see forms .

Yet , there is another world of the formless .

In the world of formless , one can see forms coming and going , yet the formless always remain intact!

My whole or basic experience is centred around this two !

I have come to realise that forms will not last and the formless does not change !

I have simply identified with the formless !

That is it !!

You are welcomed to question me if you wish to ?

Will end now .

Take care .

Love.

Amar

Now , I Just Want To Be !

Now , I Just Want To Be !

I have been writing some topic here and there for some time .

I was sitting at these busy restaurant and having a drink .

Sitting quielty , I saw everybody just talking away !

They had so much to talk about ! 

They appeared excited , waving their hands , expressing with their eyes !

I just sat there watching this noisy chatter and wondering .

Far out , I could see the distant limestone hills with patches of greenery .

It was a hot day . The sky was clear . Some clouds were gathering far around the hills .

It usually rains in the late afternnon . 

The trees across the road looked tired . An occassional passage of wind brought some relief .

Returning myself back to the noisy chattering , I wondered what is so important that must be spoken in such a demanding manner ?

Will all this talking be relevent in a few hours from now !

Who is to say , yet , I feel and think we are just in this excessive habit of talking about nothing much !

I found that being quiet is rather uncomfortable for most people .

Being alone is even more scary to many !

Sitting quietly , sipping my drink , I kept reflecting with my thoughts .

Whatever I talk about or share is an expression of my experience .

That experience comes from a clashing , merging and fusion of knowledge that I have acquired , read or heard . An inner awareness dialogus with the knowingness and some thoughts start to take shape !

How relevent are they to anyone ?!

They too could form a clashing , merging or fusion of some sorts within them !

Who is to say on that !

My drink was finishing . I was still sitting and watching all around me . 

People were still going on chattering , sometimes

loudly , sometime in low voices .

They sure have a lot to share or maybe just needed to fill the emptiness !

I finished my drink and came out from the crowded resturant .

Walked silently back to my home .

I simply was enjoying my sense of being !

I have nothing much to say now !

Take care .

Amar.

What Can We Learn From Our Behaviour ?!

What Can We learn From Our Behaviour ?!

I have realised that I can learn so much by just watching how we behaviour !

Let me illustrate what I mean .

I am reading a newspaper and saw a breaking news where thousands have died due to an earthquake !

I am having my coffee and my favourite cookie or a piece of cake . 

I read the news and keep enjoying my coffee and my cookie !

Then I simply turn the page and read about the latest football score !

Life goes on for me as usual !

A close relative of mine is dying or dead . 

My whole body /mind has taken a new pattern !

I find no taste in any food .

I simply feel very sad , moody and listless !

I cannot go to sleep !

My world and life is shattered ! 

Now take another example .

I belong to this religion . Everything about this religion is super sacred for me .

The religious head is seen as god ! The holiest place of worship is my heaven !

Is it the same for a person from another religion ?!

No ! of course not ! 

These examples are every day happenings and nothing unusual !

That is the way of we humans !

Attachments , a sense of belonging . my values , my this or my that !

My sense of identity .

This sense of ' I ' and not  'I ' is where I do my thinking !

Can the I get attached to all of creation ?

Can the I get detached from all of Creation ?!

Once you are able to understand the ' I ' , you will get your answers !

Til then enjoy the good life !

Take care .

Amar.

I Am Perfect ! So Are You !

I am Perfect ! So Are You !

It was still very dark . The morning prayers from the many mosques around were just over .

All was quiet except for a few crows that decided to start any early morning discussion ! I have no idea what they were shouting about ! 

An occasional motor sound was heard passing my place . This were the early bird types !

I just sat quietly and was going from reflections to just being still . Even the gentle reflections can be noisy in the early morning !

Being still is just Perfect ! 

What is this perfect state that I want to share with you ?!

Nothing lofty or grandiose , I can assure you .

Most people are stressed and always struggling with this perfect state !

They have a mental picture or an attitude that there is a perfect way to live !

I have no idea what it is they are aiming for !!

How does one become perfect in the first place ?!!

What does it mean to be perfect ?

If I watch people around , they have a program that is running in their heads constantly !

They want everything to be in some order that they feel will bring them happiness !

They become obsessed with that idea ! That idea becomes their reality and starts to control and run their life !

What I have noticed is that so called perfect state is always deluding them ! They are never ever happy ! 

How can they be ?!

Their perfect life and living is a program or condition that is not real ! It is an illusion !

They are not relaxed as they have to be perfect according to their belief or condition .

That can become very stressful and it is so for most people ! They are high strung ed , anxious , irritated , agitated and moody most of the time .

My understanding of being perfect is really very simple and easy !

I am perfect as I am right now ! 

That is it !

I have accepted myself as I am now ! I cannot be anything else other then what I am right now !

This is called total acceptance ! 

That is the reality and truth ! 

Anything lesser is not true .

I am perfect now with my failures and my success !

I am wonderful and great in some ways and not in some other ways !

That is okay with me .

Some will like and love me , others will not for whatever reason ! That's okay too .

When we can accept everything without our own agenda or program , life and living becomes very relaxed and easy !

Just let go and live fully , love freely !

That is how I am perfect ! So are you !

I have decided to be me and perfect !

Now you decide what you want to be ?!

That will do for now .

Take care . 

Amar.