Now the Ultimate Reason Why Death is My Best Friend

Now the Ultimate Reason Why Death is My Best Friend !

As I have started revealing my relationship with this Great Mystery , I might as well go all the way !

My earlier two blogs that I shared from my personal life . Now again I have to go very personal into my life ! I just realised that our life is a great treasure house of the most unique type !

Also , as I am sharing my very very personal story with all of you , it does take courage and inner reason ! I always kept notes and journals about my experiences ! It was just my habit . During my meetings with people around the world , I was always asked why dont I want to write and share my experience of living . I just never felt a need , plus I am so contented and happy with my quite and private life .

However , now I feel that I am ready to come out and share my unique life experiences . We all have unique life stories that are so amazing !

Anyway, coming to my ultimate reason why death is my best friend ? 

This story from my life is about 21 years old !

At that time , I was a successful medical doctor practicing in Malaysia .

Things were going really well in terms of everything that the world had to offer .

Happy at work , enjoyed my passion to heal and help people with physical and psychological issue .

Domestic life too was good . A wonderful wife and a son that was and is a gift from the Source !

I have always treated everything as a gift and loan that I can enjoy but must remember to return back when I leave this physical life ! I am just a visitor at most and just passing through !

Although all life was wonderful and fun , I still went to my inner space to sit in silence and just be !

In those states of being, amazing and magical things can and do happen ! Call it mystical or mysterious

or whatever label suits you , but be warned something is happenning in that or this space !

One day, as I was in this space , I was feeling good about my external life and world . I was having a dialogue with No-thingness ! I simply talked , of course , in my mind .

I told the mysterious No-thingness that I am very pleased with the present situation and my worldly trappings .

I got a reply back !  . How ? A thought simply comes like an email in the inbox ! Like an email from No-thingness !

The reply was , do you really own or have all this things or trappings ? I replied that I feel that I have them . Immediately I got a full reply ! I was told that I own nothing ! Everything was just a passing show ! Infact, I have actually become trapped and a prisoner of sorts ! I was reminded how I worked so hard and had to maintain my lifestyle . It was a great responsibility and stressful at times too !

Wow ! It was a hard knock ! I become very silent and then asked what should I do to correct the situation ? The No-thingness just told me to be calm and relax ! So I did just that !

Let me also tell you that I had a very simple lifestyle inspite of my external trappings !

I was a lacto-vegetarain , no smoking , no alcholic drinks whatsoever ! not much of a party animal .

In short a bore to most people ! Hahaha.

All went well . I went to work as usual and everything was going smooth .

Then , one evening as I was driving back from my medical practice im my comfortable car , I felt slightly giddy . Very mild and lasted a few seconds . I just thought that I must be tired .

Came home and enjoyed my evening with family and some friends that had come to visit me from India. 

All was well . I came to my bedroom about midnight . As I was going to go to bed , I told my wife to switch places with me ! I dont know why ! A thought just came . Instead of sleeping  nearer to the air-conditioning , I wanted to sleep near  to the phone ! Of course, at that moment I had no idea why I was behaving or doing what I was doing ! I just followed my gut feelings or instincts !

My wife too accepted my behave without any questions .

It was 2 am ! I got up feeling a sharp and severe pain on the left side of my chest ! The pain was so severe that I felt as though a sharp knife was cutting into my body ! I jumped up and switch on my side table light . My wife too got up . I told her that I was having this severe pain in my chest . She looked perplexed and lost ! I am the doctor ! Anyway , I told her to get me a warm drink . As she went to the kitchen , I sat and thought what is happenning ! After an eternal moment , I realised that it was my heart crying out ! I was having a heart attack ! Holy God ! Immediately I reflected within and became calm ! I picked up my phone and called a cardiologist . He was a very dear friend and sort of country cousin ! He was shocked to hear about my pain . Told me that he was coming immediately ! I told him to calm down and go to the specialist hospital and start arrangements for my coming ! I decided to let my wife drive me to the hospital ! Dont ask me if that was a right decision ! I wont advice that !

My wife drove me very gently to the hospital . It was not very far anyway.

Unknown to anyone , I was already going into my inner space and looking for answers !

I just got a warm comforting feeling that all is well and okay !!

Keeping that to myself , I went along with my external living and the new drama !

As I reached the hospital , I was met by my cardiologist friend and immediately carried to a trolley . The rolling trolley was taken to the ICU . Yes , intensive care unit which was also the CCU ! Coronary care unit ! Whatever the reason that was how it was then !

Immediately, I the healthy doctor who was seeing patients in the morning , was now in the intensive care and being treated ! Seeing life from a patients perspective is probably essential for a doctor !

Medical machines , cardiac monitors , drips and more blood being taken out from any vein they could find . What a scary drama for the unintiated . All hell or heaven was loose !

I was just fascinated and things were happenning so fast . I dont remember having any fear . I was silently in my quiet space ! As my cardiologist was going out , I called a nurse to please call back the cardiologist ! She was abit incomfortable . I than had to tell her that I too was a medical doctor and that  cardiologist was my country cousin ! 

He was immediately called back . I told him that I was still feeling a deep pain in my left chest .

After a moments thought, he told me that was going to give me an intracardiac injection !

An injection into my heart !

He looked concerned 1 I was able to reassure him and told him to go ahead with he felt best .

That is when my life story takes a major turn !

I suddenly found myself in an amazing world ! I see myself standing and talking to this beautiful Being with a long flowing beard ! He wore a turban and was actually radiating with an amazing light ! I knew who he was , as I had meet him years ago in the foothills of the Himalayas in India ! He had died a few years before . I was very pleased to see and meet him ! The place was just magical ! He told me that I was dead !! I just could not understand him ! I told him that I was talking to him ! He smiled and told me that my body is lying in the hospital bed and I am now in my non physical or spiritual form ! 

I just could not believe that ! He went on to inform me that I was always wondering about death and had done so much of thinking and reading that it was time to let me have an actual experince !!

I was just lost for words and felt so pleased . I asked if this was true for all people ? He answered that of course it was true for all people !! No exceptions !! Wow !

I felt very happy and thanked him . I told him that I am very happy being with him and wanted to just stay there with him ! 

Thats when he told that I will have to go back to my body and keep living and enjoying the Human form !! I also told me that there is nothing to fear now ! Told that we are always being taken care off ! We are never left alone ever !

We are all connected and come from the same source ! Never ever separated !

So , here I am back in this Human form sharing my wonderful life !

Did it really happen ? Was it some hallucination ?!  Too many drugs in me ! Maybe !

I will stop now from this rather lengthy episode . 

Will share more later . Till then God Bless .

Amar.