Friday, June 27, 2014

We All Live in a World of Beliefs !

We All Live in a World of Beliefs !

As humans , we are the only living life form on this planet that live in beliefs !
Of course , I must confess that I really don't know if other life forms have anything like what we humans have !
Sometimes , I simply assume so much ! That can be rather dangerous to living in my reality !
Yes , now coming to this world of beliefs . 
What are they really ?!
If you really ask me or we go to unfold our beliefs , they are just that : Beliefs !!
Out of our thoughts and feelings we create ideas and concepts .
These ideas and concepts start to develop into our reality .
Over time that really becomes our reality and truth !
Now , we actually believe in our beliefs !!
We are prepared to go all the way to maintain or fight for our beliefs !
Just look around our planet , read history , see how our ways are !!
We kill for our beliefs , we divide , we suffer , we celebrate , we enjoy , in fact , we are only living according to our beliefs !!
Our beliefs have knotted us so tightly that we are practically in a prison of our beliefs !
We are chains of beliefs so strong that it simply is amazing !
The funny thing is that we are unable to see that beliefs that have taken over our life and living !
The belief system has taken full control of our life !
What is our real reality ??!!
Nothing , if you ask me !!
You are free to do whatever pleases you !
Of course , living with other life forms , we live with respect and love with all !
How do I come to that conclusion ?!
I do that by just becoming aware our my needs and myself !
I want to be loved , peaceful , respected and not in any suffering !
That is what the rest of life form want to !!
In that sense we are all One !
Coming back to my topic , beliefs in this or that are mind boggling and amazing !
Just become observant of what people are doing , feeling , thinking or behaving and you will see that great adventure of our live of beliefs !
Just see how we belief : I belief I will be happy living there or in the country ! Are all people living in that place or country happy ?! Of course not !
People will eat according to their beliefs ! As they





change their beliefs , their eating habit too will change ! 
What I am to make of all this ? I really don't know ! 
As far as I am concern , nothing makes sense to me ! 
I have been studying people and their beliefs and I can do nothing !
When we accept and follow our beliefs , we truly take that as our reality ! 
Just look at this simple belief . Some belief that a cow is so sacred that they call her mother !The cow is seen as a divine animal !
Another group feel that scarifying or killing the cow is their sacred duty to please their gods !
Now , who is to say who is right here ?!!
It is their belief !
One group belief that keeping their hair long and uncut is their sacred way !
Another group actually shave and go bald to become monks to follow their sacred ways !
In the past , not too long ago , women who were married had to sacrifice themselves after the death of their husbands ! They had to jump in the fire ! It was part of Hindu religion in India !
Another group , believed that if the became nuns , they had to pluck all their hair from their scalp !
Can you imagine the pain and sacrifice !
Some believe that it is their sacred duty to go around the world to pass the message of their god so that those people are saved ! These people went to the remotest parts of the planet to share or give their sacred message ! What can I say to that !
Can you imagine my situation who has gone beyond such beliefs ?!!
How did I do it ?!
I was able to understand and realise that all of these beliefs are just that , beliefs !
Most people are very fearful to break or go against their beliefs ! It is a serious matter !
People can become very sensitive around their beliefs !
Have to become careful and sensitive to their beliefs !
When I started to challenge all my beliefs , I had to face many difficult situations !
Suddenly I am not a believer ! I just cannot go on following things that make no sense to me !
It is really very strange and funny at times !
The fear or importance around that belief has just disappeared for me !
I have become aware of or see things from another perspective !
What can I do now ?!
I am just sharing my views about a very deep and sensitive topic of all people .
I have no reason to offend anyone for what ever reason .
I respect them yet , I also am unhappy or uncomfortable with some beliefs !
Alot of people are struggling and trapped in their beliefs !
Will end here for today . 
This is a massive topic !
Take care . Love.
Amar.


Thursday, June 26, 2014

This body is loaned to me ! It is not mine !

This Body is Loaned to me ! It is not mine !

This body that I keep calling mine is not mine !!
I or mine or me are words that are used as though it means what we have assumed !
Before I ( for the sake of writing I will use I ! ) can really understand who or what I is , I have built and expanded this I so much , that it now appears real !!
For the time being let me leave I alone and write about the body that we have .
Yes , I seem to feel and think that I live in this body and it is mine !
Is that a fact ?!
This marvelous , mysterious and wonderfully complex body has a mind of it's own !!
It very rarely ever needs my input to function !
It grows , repairs and does all the millions of magical stuff without my knowledge !
It has amazing organs that I have very little idea about .
The body has been growing and changing in size without my knowledge .
When I am sleeping , it is going on maintaining all functions without my presence !
Is it under my control ?
Not at all !
The only conscious stuff I am aware is that I eat or drink whenever I want to .
And that actually does more harm for my body then good !!
I am eating or drinking whatever for my desire and taste !!!
Definitely not to give my body the best nutrition that it needs for its optimum functioning !
In fact , I do everything to damage my body !!
Always eating or drinking or doing other stuff to really damage my wonderful body !
The body being what it is, quietly does it's work to it's best !
At other times in spite of everything , the body just cannot go on ! Then , it needs some time to repair if it can or gets damaged !
The body was given to us to use it on this planet to give the needed experience and whatever else .
We thought we are able to understand this awesome body and repair it !
Till now , we have not done such a good job ! 
We , as usual think or assume that we have ! ( as usual it is our habit to be arrogant )
The body will go on functioning as long is it was programmed to let us enjoy our experience here !
Experience over , it will shut down immediately !
It does not care if it is still a very young body or old !!
If it was my body , then I should be in charge or at least be in control !
The body's needs are so simple that it will simple shock most of us !!
Our whole culture or even the so called civilisation will get a shock !
Our needs are really very simple ! 
A little food and plenty of water , air and sun light !
Our original taste for the good natural food is now replaced with a very strange taste of the mind !
The mind has endless never ending desires and taste that can never be satisfied !
A very good and simple life has been taken over by a mind that has no understanding of who or what this whole game or drama is !!
That is where the question of who or what is this 'I ' will come in !!
I will leave that for some other time .
If only we are humble enough to listen to the body needs , we may or can live enjoyably and enjoy our experience on this magical planet !



Otherwise , we whole live here is a never ending struggle for the very basics !!
We struggle all our live for just 3 basic items : 1. food , 2. clothes and 3. shelter !!
The rest of every thing is to support this basics !!
We have not advanced very much from there !!
We believe and think we have !!
Till then , take care .
Love.
Amar.

Early Days of Growing : The Fun and Funny Days !

Early Days of Growing : The Fun and Funny Days !

I think I must have been born on a Sunny day and in a funny moment !!
Ever since , I can remember life is fun and funny too !!
I have gone so far to express that living is really fun and dying is even funnier !
Now that seems weired and wicked to many in this world who are holding on to dear life !!
To me , Life is holding me down here and not letting me fly away !
Actually , I have enough of this human life here !!
I sometimes feel that I am tired of dragging my body around !
Maybe , a have gone a little over board !
I do really love me , my body and myself very much !
To tell you the truth , I ( whatever that means ! ) find everything about me and all very funny !
This human body is great but it also is very weird and strangely strange !
I have sat quietly and watched how people are , walking , sitting or carry their bodies .
I have seen my own body and laughed till I want to role on the floor !
I simply don't want to go into details of some of our ways of functioing in this body !
The body is fun and funny .
We tend to limit our potential of what this amazing body can do .
I have seen it do things and also experienced the potential that it has .
Take running as an example . If you start running you will get tired easily .
Initially you feel tired and have no stamina .
Then , as you keep running daily , you realise that everyday you are getting better and better !
Stamina keeps improving and you can easily run further and faster !
What or where is the limit to our potential ?!
There are people who can run Ultra Marathons !! A 100 mile run !!
When I saw that potential I was just delighted !
I was a skinny guy at birth . I told my father that I want to put some flesh around my self !
He just told me to be patient . Told me that once I grow up and about to get married , I will be fine !
I was about 17 years then . I simply informed that I will change my so called DNA stuff with my desire and intention . He smiled and gave me my space . ( I had the most wonderful , understanding and wise father !! ) Have to write a full book on him some day !
Just a little regression here . My father went back to studying at the age of 37 years , that is , leaving behind  in Malaya 3 children and my mother and went on to fulfill his childhood dream to become a medical doctor ! Second World War took away his wish in his younger days . The Japanese were busy expanding their Great Nippon Empire in Malaya and other parts of the world ! My dear father , with my mothers blessings and courage , went to India to study Pre-university and move towards a medical college ! That is my father ! When he was in the final year of medical college , I was then in my first year of medical college too !! Both , father and son in medical colleges as medical students !! My whole life on that story can go into many episodes!! 
Anyway , coming to my body weight , I went all out and did body building to the glee of my father !
Within 6 months , my father saw a different son ! I started having a slow well built body .
So , we can if we want to !
Where is the limit ?!
I feel and think my father or my parents had no idea that an alien was born to them !!
I would do anything if I simply put my mind to it !
Impossible was not in my dictionary ! I m possible was all I knew !
I went on to tell my good father that I wanted to do art or specfically oil painting !
He just could not understand my strange hobbies . Nobody in our family did that ?!
Went on to show that is possible too !!
In short , what is it that we cannot do or achieve ??!!
Where is our limit ?!
Who sat that limit ?!
How I knew that at that early age , I have no idea !!
I simply studied anything and everything under the Sun and the Sun itself !!
My desire to simply know for the sake of knowing was very real !
Why this , why that !
How this and how that !
Ultimately , I had to come to the final why or how of everything ?!!!
Who or what is this God !!!
So , since my childhood , this has been my magnficient obession !!
Can you ever imagine the fun and funny things I have seen or experiences along my journey !!
What we humans have done and are going on doing ?!
It is a strange and really a wonderful world and life !!
Will end for now.
Take care . Love.
Amar.





Growing Years : Fun and Funny Days !

Growing Years : Fun and Funny Days !

My growing years are just so wonderful and amazing !
That is how growing should be to live a full life !
I was so full of life !
From early morning till bed time , it was fun , run and more fun !
I was so full of energy ! 
If my mother was upset for any reason with me ( there were so many reason to be upset with me ! )
she found it difficult to punish me !!
When she threatened to hit me with whatever came her way , I would run for my dear life !!
If you can catch me , you can hit me ! ( hitting or punishing was the norm in those days ! The rod was used for whatever reason  and reasons were many ! )
Basically , I was full of pranks and labelled a naughty fella ! 
What choice did I have ??!!
If left to the choice of grown ups , I would have become a living dead or a walking dead !
Cannot do this , cannot do that !!
Come back home in time , otherwise somebody is going to get hurt !
Discipline , threats , control and more control !
I understand they meant well ! 
My mother was the whole army !
The funny thing is that after sometime you just get used or immune to all these threats and punishments !
I will share an example ; Mother has given a clear message that I should be home from play by 7 pm.
Not a minute later !
Coming home at 7:10 pm means punishment awaits me . So , I accept that calmly .
The next day , I thought , what if I came at 8 pm ?!
Yes , I will get punished for sure , but I really had a good day!
So what !! 
When I behaved in such silly and frustrating ways , my poor mother was really mad !
She caught me , while I jumped like some lunatic ape !
She took whatever came in her hand and started hitting me !
I jumped about and then suddenly started to laugh loudly !!
She was shocked and asked what is so funny ?!
I calmly replied that I simply cannot be hurt !!
Further , she just cannot hit the real me as I am not of this body !
I remember telling that the body that she is hitting belongs to her but not me ?!!
Can you imagine her anger and frustration !!
So , I developed a wonderful relationship with my mother !
She could really frustrate me with her controlling style and I was simply not born to be controlled !
She had her rules and ways , so did I !
Yet , below all this game of life there was a very strong woman with some good values that I am always thankful for !
She was my first real Guru !
Always told me to stand up for my rights and to respect All humans as One !
Coming from India and that too from the rural villages , she always told me to look beyond race , religion , caste , country and all other labels given to people !
Can you imagine , that at my birth , she actually invited a Muslim woman living next door to be my Godmother ! She was born a Sikh , Punjabi ! A complete vegetarian from birth , a high caste woman with very high values of Hinduism and yet she invited a Muslim woman to bless me , her first born !
Later , she always encouraged me to eat and share my food with all people of all races and caste !
That was way back in the 1950's !
She would daily read to me the Great Epics of India ! The Mahabharata and The Ramayana !
Also countless stories of the countless saints , gurus and other great people of character !
I grew up filling so at home with Lord Rama and Sita , enjoyed the adventures of Lord Krishna !
Although , I was born in Malaya , living in the hills and jungles there , my thoughts were in the different Yugas of the Great Bharat ( an old name for India ! )




Finally , when I had cornered her about the ever mysterious and formless God , she had to admit that
she had not seen god , but was very sure He existed in the Formless state and could take any form !
She had heard and experienced that her people in the villages in India actually lived and shared their lives with such gods !
She told me that her grandmother, aunties and other family members were always one with the gods !
They lived in complete harmony with them while in human form !
At the time of the so called death , the gods always came to inform them that their time had come to leave this human form !!!
They were told to get ready to let go of this life and go to the higher life beyond this human form !!
Her relatives or family then got ready , said their good byes and sat all ready , now waiting for the gods to come and take them Home !
Wow !! You all must be thinking , I am now going very weird and telling you fairy tales !!
The gods came ( I am using small letters for gods because I am referring to Beings of a higher plane that had a form ! I am not talking of The God !! )
My sharing of my life story is like another epic from the times beyond !
Living an ordinary life in a simple average household , yet the experience was extraordinary !
It was like gods had decided to live in human form !!
My own maternal grandmother ,living in the village died in a similar way !
She told her family that the gods have told her that they will come to take her Home in 3 days 1
She must get ready and take leave from her family and say her good byes !
Having done that , she sat quietly and waited for them to come !!
They came and took her away !!!!
I have to stop here as I am sure , I have blown your mind and sense of reality away !!
At this juncture , the choice you have to make is very simple !
I will help you !
Either you are convinced and believe my story or you do not ?!!
If you are convinced of my truth or reality , then please continue reading my blogs !
Otherwise read them as fiction or have fun from a cranky character or just do whatever pleases you !
I say that so straight forwardly or as they say , frankly , because I have lived enough and seen enough how people react !
As I use to share my stories in my younger days , I was so often labelled so many funny names !
That was then ! I kept my stories to myself for a very long time !
Now , I am sharing with you , so you can decide !
I cannot be offended any more !
There is no 'I ' to get offended !!
Will stop here for now .
Thank you . Take care .
Love you .
Amar.

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Sharing My Experiences : Early Days of Growing !

Sharing My Experiences : Early Days of Growing !

As far back as I can go back into my childhood , it always takes me to India !
I seem to have some deep connection to this ancient land !
Even , now , I notice that almost all my dreams are all linked or connected to India !!
I have lived and been to a few countries around the world , but , India is central to my life !
Why is that so , I have no clear idea or reason .
It simply is so !
You will be surprised , that I have very vague memories even as young as 1 to 2 years old !
Maybe they are real memories or could be some construct that I created later from hearing about 
stories from parents and family !
As my mother comes from Punjab , India , that is where most of my memory is from .
My parents were married in 1947 !!
That was the time of Indian Independence !
Worst , still , that was the time of



the Great Indian Partition too !!
What a horrible time that humanity had to go through !!
Why do humanity have to go through such pain and suffering ?
Why they suddenly can become so distorted in their thinking and feelings !
Fear , confusion , lose of every sense of values and clouded in beliefs !
Has it changed today ?! No !!
Will it change in the near future ?! Unlikely !!
It is better for me to face the reality and move on from there then pretend that it is otherwise !
Facing that reality of our behaviour and beliefs can be useful towards my understandings !
Everything about my life is wonderful when I am relating to my surroundings !
I grew up the thickly forested mountains in Malaysia . ( Then called Malaya ! )
Every few years it was time to visit my mother's people .
They were traditional farmers and so lived in the villages in Punjab , India.
The main crop that they grew was wheat . They always had small patches of land near home for vegetables for their own consumption . A cow or a buffalo for milk . That took care of nearly 80 % of their needs ! They were very self sufficient and needed very little from beyond their villages !
My ancestors in India lived a good life . They were tall , hardy and proud people !
Mostly vegetarians , non smokers and no alcohol ! Can you see that !!
They were Sikhs by religion . A rather modern religion that is about 500 years old .
A always enjoyed that good life !
They love to look after their lands and were proud warriors too !!
Their were and are the front line to India's defence !
Good feeling to see them walk tall and live well !
Generous , open hearted and always giving and sharing is their nature !
This are my people ! 
That is the closest I can express about my sense of belonging today !
In reality , I feel very strongly about being one with all humanity !!
Let me put it another way , I am very aware of being human first !
As a living being I deeply value life in a very broad sense !
Reverence for Life is the best I can express !!
Growing in such a culture , customs , religion and people is how my early character was formed .
It was allowed to grow at it's own pace and expand naturally .
That was the best gift I got from my people .
I was allowed to reason and wonder about things from an early life .
Why things are like that and why not like that !
That freedom to question and reason is really magical !
I could question and work my way through all my beliefs !!
Finally , I was even allowed to question about my religion and its customs !
When no proper answers were forth coming , I was allowed to do further thinking or change !
That has been the best aspect of my growing years !
I questioned everything around !
Walking in those villages , seeing those fields of wheat , sugar cane and cotton and more really made an impression on me .
Their wholesome living . Eating well and yet simple ! Slept early and got up early !
It was a real good life .
Faith was in One Good God who gave to All !
That was good ! I grew up feeling good !
Good was already a given , so if I wanted to improve , it had to be better !!
The better was more about values then just material !! Material was always seen as good enough !
There was a sense of contentedness and feeling satisfied ! ( Now, let me not paint some kind of heavenly paradise for you !! Basically , life was taken with a good attitude even if there were petty , trivial needs ! )
That were my early days !!
Enough for today . Will share more later .
Take care .
Amar.

Monday, June 23, 2014

Time for a Chat !

Time for a Chat !

Can we have a chat ?
You have been reading my blog and I really appreciate that !
Thank you .
Now , my good reason for a chat is to ask you my dear friend , are you finding
my writings useful or helpful ?
I am writing or sharing my experience of living so it can be meaningful and helpful !
What other reason do I have ?!!
I have spent most of my life thinking and wondering about how and why of life and living .
It is a most amazing and fascinating learning !
After all it is about us !
Here we live as though we are going to live forever !!
As though we are permanent residents on this planet !
An uncertain , unpredictabile life where we have no idea what can happen the next moment !
Yet , we seem to live in a make belief or some kind of denial !
The rich are going hording as much as they can ! what are they thinking ?!
The people who have power are doing this same !
What are they doing that for ?
Have they got some secret that I don't know ?!
Is it the way of fear ?
Are this not things that make you wonder ?
I am growing ,am becoming older , will and can become ill and will eventually pass away !
That is the reality and a fact of life !
Do I need to get worried ?
How will that be useful or helpful ?
We understand reality , face it with a clear mind and live life fully and joyfully now !!
Now is the only reality that we can call real !
If we see things from that perspective , our way of living will change completely !
We will enjoy more , love more and value everybody and everything more , yet will see no need or reason to cling to it or anyone !
We will realise the magic and mystery of living in the now !
That is the only real place we have ! Now !!
I think that is enough for now !
Take care . Love.
Amar.



Sunday, June 22, 2014

Are Our Problems Real ?!

Are Our Problems Real ?!

" All problems are illusions of the mind ! "
" Focus your attention on the now and tell me what problem you have at this moment . "
" I am not getting any answer because it is impossible to have a problem when your attention is fully in the Now ! A situation need to be dealt with or accepted ! Why make is a problem ? "
The above statements were taken from a book by Eckhart Tolle .

Read it carefully and then don't rush to respond immediately .
Wait ! Ponder and think , reflect or contemplate .

If the above statements by Eckhart Tolle are real , then it is mind blowing !
It will alter your whole world view of life and living !
That is no small matter !
In fact , that is the whole problem that we are having and dragging around !

Once , we can let go of all such self created problems , then life and living becomes a joy !
We get back our lost paradise !

We simply always get identified with so many things  in life .
I am a man, son , father , brother , Indian , German , Hindu , Muslim , and endless other such identities!



As I identify with any of them , I become attached to it . I associate with it . I link with it .
I actually become it !!
I am  now a Buddhist ! I am now a French man ! I am a Muslim ! A Hindu !
By my association and identity , I have become that entity !!
I , now am a Hindu ! I now belong to about 900 million such people who also call themselves by such an identity !
In that large group of people , there are all sorts of them !!
A full spectrum of human beings !
From the best to the worst , all are and can be found in  such a large mass of people !!
Now , I have adopted and become part of them !
I act and react in that name ! 
I will hold my head high or low according to their behaviour patterns !
Let me tell , there is nothing wrong or right here !
I simply cannot handle or be responsible for all their behaviours !
Even , my own behaviour sometimes  surprises me !!
So , identity is an amazing entity !
Where does it all happen ?!
In our mind ! That is it !
In the present moment , the mind is unable to play it's games !
As the mind is unable to react , you become very peaceful and will be free of problems !
We simply attend to issues that need our attention .
Life and living becomes a blissful reality !
That is all for now .
Take care. Love.
Amar.